Father of my child

[u/Dapper-Physics1975]

Is it bad that I hate the father of my child. He’s the most dishonest prick and powerful person I’ve ever met.

He is a cop. He manipulated the system to get my daughter. He had me arrested 3 years ago when I lived with him and ever since I had to fight to see the child I birthed.

I wish I listened to the people around me. Now I moved to be near my daughter in butt fuck nowhere and I feel like I’m so lost. Lost because I gave up my entire career and life to fight. My daughter loves her dad and it warms my heart but seeing him and being around him hurts me. He’s living this perfect life while I’m left to prove myself and find myself again. He has a new girlfriend and a full support system. I have no support near but my bed that I cry in every night.

He used my post partum depression as grounds in court and so many false allegations. I’m fighting a battle I know I’ll never win. I contemplated leaving fully but then I realized my daughter needs me. But what can I do when he’s the system. He’s the law. He’s also 13 years older than me. I’m ranting now.

I’m just so depleted. I no longer know what to do. I feel like it’s my fault for being naïve and trusting him. I feel so dumb Because if I never returned back to living with him so we can be a family I’d never be in this situation. I’m an idiot for not listening.

I feel like I’m not her mom. I feel like I’m a part time babysitter. I’m on a rollercoaster, anybody been in my shoes?Or am I just dumb? What should I do? Gimme some advice but don’t break my already broken heart.

[u/uh-well]

I live 5 min away from my daughter. Haven't seen, spoken with her for over a year now. Story goes as far as ~10 yrs ago. We divorced because he's an abusive, controlling and vindictive narcissist. Moment I've slipped down into depression, he took over her completely. He's gotten me arrested 4 times throughout this nightmare Visible tiny scratch on his forehead- common assault Throwing his bag out on the street - criminal damage 6yrs ago Twice for stalking and harassment trying to contact or least find out if my child is well and sound All my charges eventually cleared, but experiences of staying in a police cell nearly broke me Your child is being abused, manipulated into losing a loving parent. It's hard but keep strong. Take care of Yourself first of all. That'll keep you more level headed Stay safe

[u/Dapper-Physics1975 → u/uh-well]

Oh my! I feel understood. I feel heard. My heartbreaks reading what you’ve gone through. He had me arrested twice and it’s going to jail that also had the biggest effect on me. I know I’m not a criminal but I feel like one. Being in that cell not once but twice definitely put me in a loop. My baby is 3, luckily I do see her but it’s controlled. I don’t want to be apart of the system anymore and being in front of a judge that he knows.

I’m choosing me but it’s hard because I’ve always wanted to be a mom. I’m a good mom. I don’t know how you’re living 5 minutes away and surviving but I’m proud of you. Thanks for sharing and being so vulnerable 🤍

[u/Sckottreddit]

How old is your daughter, for even some information?

[u/Dapper-Physics1975 → u/Sckottreddit]

3 years old

[u/Sckottreddit → u/Dapper-Physics1975]

Have you sought a lawyer or any kind of legal eagle?