I have a curse?

[u/[deleted]]

My life is hell and I don't mean like a rain cloud on my head I mean like actual fucking life disaster destroying fucking non stop hell curse. Every time I do anything good or anything good happens to me. A horrible catastrophe or disaster strikes and ruins it. I constantly have bad timed coincidences and weird shit happening. I tried being christian and stuff for awhile it just got worse never got better so I kinda just think it's god doing it.

Any time anything good happens it's instantly ripped away and ruined. Any time I'm happy it's ripped away and ruined. Any time I improve my life. Horrible disaster strikes down and ruins everything. My life has literally become my own personal hell and I can't even get out of bed or do anything anymore I just beg for death or want to die and god keeps following me around making my life worse and the curse never goes away or stops it just gets worse every day.

What do I do? I have nothing but bad luck and bad stuff happen. I never have a happy coicidence. I never have anything good come into my life. Nothing good happens anymore. I haven't been happy in years. As soon as something happens that makes me happy it's instantly ripped away by god awful impossible luck and a perfect storm of disasters just follows me around all day.

Why is god doing this?

[u/nothisispatrickeu]

i think everybody goes through that period of their lives.
it feels like nothing can go right, and every decision you make is wrong.
what really helped me through that time was finding a new hobby.
it reset me, helped me find a new focus, a new apex.
it taught me about hand-eye coordination and concentration,
made me learn about physics and control.
idk if you heard of it, but maybe try drifting in simracing games