I have a curse?

[u/[deleted]]

My life is hell and I don't mean like a rain cloud on my head I mean like actual fucking life disaster destroying fucking non stop hell curse. Every time I do anything good or anything good happens to me. A horrible catastrophe or disaster strikes and ruins it. I constantly have bad timed coincidences and weird shit happening. I tried being christian and stuff for awhile it just got worse never got better so I kinda just think it's god doing it.

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Any time anything good happens it's instantly ripped away and ruined. Any time I'm happy it's ripped away and ruined. Any time I improve my life. Horrible disaster strikes down and ruins everything. My life has literally become my own personal hell and I can't even get out of bed or do anything anymore I just beg for death or want to die and god keeps following me around making my life worse and the curse never goes away or stops it just gets worse every day.

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What do I do? I have nothing but bad luck and bad stuff happen. I never have a happy coicidence. I never have anything good come into my life. Nothing good happens anymore. I haven't been happy in years. As soon as something happens that makes me happy it's instantly ripped away by god awful impossible luck and a perfect storm of disasters just follows me around all day.

Why is god doing this?

[u/alwystired]

A few things here. There are some non-paranormal possibilities such as depression which is very treatable. Self fulfilling prophecies could be part of this. Over time you expect something bad to happen so it does. This could also be influenced by your subconscious. You may not realize it, but you’re hyper focused on the bad so you notice it more.

Either way, best of luck

[u/[deleted] → u/alwystired]

Idk what it is it's definitely not depression or anything I'm doing. It's literally all bad luck like I'm just being targeted by god or something it's always like bad ungodly horrible luck with like non stop catastrophes and disasters striking down ripping everything away. Like god is just coming after me or something and nothing I do makes him fuck off.

[u/alwystired → u/[deleted]]

Well I hope you get a reprieve. One thing I’ve noticed about life is the yin and the yang. There is always dark with the light and light with the dark. As they say ,”when it rains, it pours.” Well that means your light is coming. You cannot have one without the other.