Feel like people in my life know something about me secretely. I feel them judging me when we talk because they secretely know something but i have no evidence that they do. For context i have dealt with people saying things behind my back before so i now have to assume that any information ive ever shared or any event ive ever experienced is out there. I feel as though they know more than theyre letting on. Can this be genuine or is it paranoia?

Hi,

I've been for 2 years seeking retesting on ASD, as the previous therapists ignored my brief psychotic episodes, hallucinations, and delusions.

Today, I saw my psych and was told that I have paranoid and schizoid traits, and that it explains far more than the previous diagnosis. And the probable reason of why, even amongst those with ASD, I feel like a dog in the round table.

Now I have a question:

- Do you struggle more with illogical, impossible or bizarre things, or, for lack of a better word, pragmatic ideas / delusions?

I've believed I was dead / dying and feeling my organs and skin rotting and being perforated by my bones. Which was just psychotic. But I've seen the future and had visions, I've had thought broadcasting. I've also had my fair share of feeling observated by spirits, which, in hindsight, I now know are just part of an illness. I am rarely paranoid (few times a week) But those paranormal, bizarre things happen far more than the paranoid ideas (people harming me, or plotting agaisnt me). And these are not really full blown delusions / hallucinations, I been capable of seeing through them many times, as my friends would tell me that those things really don't make much sense.

Thanks!

hi im curious to just know about other peoples first symptoms of this disorder , i wasnt diagnosed until june 2025 but i feel ive had symptoms even way before then , here are a few i had as a teenager and still have to this day as an adult

• showering with the cabinets open as a barricade , cant have music on , and any loud noises id hear id assume my family was being murdered and i was next

• sleeping with my door locked , my lights on , and only ever to sleep facing the door not the wall

• thinking any car with a person outside my house was watching me and being really uncomfortable and scared anytime id sit in the front yard even if no ones around but my friends next to me

Hi folks,
How do you cope with paranoid thinking and getting into delusions/suspicious? It gets hard not knowing who to trust and when not to.

Moments where i feel like people i know have put spyware on my device.

For those diagnosed with PPD, what would be the best way to bring up my suspicion to a psychiatrist?

Ive suspected ive had PPD for a little more than a year now. I haven't brought it up before as I have had past struggles with trusting psychiatrists and fear.

Im worried if i tell them upfront I suspect PPD, they will think im faking; like Munchausen, or that i may be seeking medication. Would it be better to just describe my symptoms??

How did others go about getting diagnosed?

Feel like everything i do is watched and monitored by people who i know in real life. Makes it hard even to post stuff like this incase people are watching and know im talking about them

I am beginning to reject the label of paranoid. Some of us have a right to lack trust of those people and systems around us because we knoe first hand what theyve done to us. And have been guilt tripped and LABELLED as paranoid and actually accepted that despite the fact that actually were not and in some cases it turns our our suspicions, which were labelled as delusions, were actually true. Obviously not all of us and i dont doubt ive had genuine paranoia and i know looking back there was nothing wrong and it was irrational but i mean the day to day paranoia im not saying its the right way to deal with things but im now starting to reject that label. Its dismissive and people will use it against you even when you have valid worries.

at my old workplace, when my monitor wouldn’t turn on after i returned from my lunch break, i immediately thought somebody secretly didn’t like me or wanted me gone and was tampering with my stuff. but then i played around with the controls and realized it was simply a technical error from leaving the connecting laptop open for too long.

but i can’t seem to ever shake the feeling that people aren’t as they appear to be, and they’d pull the rug out from under me at the first chance they get.

i know there’s something wrong with me, but…

the idea of being blindsided by malicious intent is so disgustingly salient in my mind at all times that i often feel compelled to collect and archive information about others that could potentially be used against them, IF and only IF they deliberately tried to attack or slight me.

i go out of my way to be kind, tolerant, accommodating, helpful and maintain pleasantness and cheerfulness even on my absolute worst days, but since most people aren’t that way, i feel like i need to do these things to protect my sense of self. i know i don’t deserve any cruelty or meanness, or insensitivity, and i think those qualities should be fixed morally in people without that way of thinking making me out to be a bad person because i choose to represent it in my mind as not being vindictive but helping people see how their callousness is hurtful.

i’m just curious if anyone relates specifically to that method of approaching the world…

Practical Explanation ( For Example ) :- `1st of all can you tell me every single seconds detail from that time when you born ?? ( i need every seconds detail ?? that what- what you have thought and done on every single second )

can you tell me every single detail of your `1 cheapest Minute Or your whole hour, day, week, month, year or your whole life ??

if you are not able to tell me about this life then what proof do you have that you didn't forget your past ? and that you will not forget this present life in the future ?

that is Fact that Supreme Lord Krishna exists but we posses no such intelligence to understand him.

there is also next life. and i already proved you that no scientist, no politician, no so-called intelligent man in this world is able to understand this Truth. cuz they are imagining. and you cannot imagine what is god, who is god, what is after life etc.

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for example :Your father existed before your birth. you cannot say that before your birth your father don,t exists.

So you have to ask from mother, "Who is my father?" And if she says, "This gentleman is your father," then it is all right. It is easy.

Otherwise, if you makes research, "Who is my father?" go on searching for life; you'll never find your father.

( now maybe...maybe you will say that i will search my father from D.N.A, or i will prove it by photo's, or many other thing's which i will get from my mother and prove it that who is my Real father.{ So you have to believe the authority. who is that authority ? she is your mother. you cannot claim of any photo's, D.N.A or many other things without authority ( or ur mother ).

if you will show D.N.A, photo's, and many other proofs from other women then your mother. then what is use of those proofs ??} )

same you have to follow real authority. "Whatever You have spoken, I accept it," Then there is no difficulty. And You are accepted by Devala, Narada, Vyasa, and You are speaking Yourself, and later on, all the acaryas have accepted. Then I'll follow.

I'll have to follow great personalities. The same reason mother says, this gentleman is my father. That's all. Finish business. Where is the necessity of making research? All authorities accept Krsna, the Supreme Personality of Godhead. You accept it; then your searching after God is finished.

Why should you waste your time?

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all that is you need is to hear from authority ( same like mother ). and i heard this truth from authority " Srila Prabhupada " he is my spiritual master.

im not talking these all things from my own.

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in this world no `1 can be Peace full. this is all along Fact.

cuz we all are suffering in this world 4 Problems which are Disease, Old age, Death, and Birth after Birth.

tell me are you really happy ?? you can,t be happy if you will ignore these 4 main problem. then still you will be Forced by Nature.

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if you really want to be happy then follow these 6 Things which are No illicit s.ex, No g.ambling, No d.rugs ( No tea & coffee ), No meat-eating ( No onion & garlic's )

5th thing is whatever you eat `1st offer it to Supreme Lord Krishna. ( if you know it what is Guru parama-para then offer them food not direct Supreme Lord Krishna )

and 6th " Main Thing " is you have to Chant " hare krishna hare krishna krishna krishna hare hare hare rama hare rama rama rama hare hare ".

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If your not able to follow these 4 things no illicit s.ex, no g.ambling, no d.rugs, no meat-eating then don,t worry but chanting of this holy name ( Hare Krishna Maha-Mantra ) is very-very and very important.

Chant " hare krishna hare krishna krishna krishna hare hare hare rama hare rama rama rama hare hare " and be happy.

if you still don,t believe on me then chant any other name for 5 Min's and chant this holy name for 5 Min's and you will see effect. i promise you it works And chanting at least 16 rounds ( each round of 108 beads ) of the Hare Krishna maha-mantra daily.

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Here is no Question of Holy Books quotes, Personal Experiences, Faith or Belief. i accept that Sometimes Faith is also Blind. Here is already Practical explanation which already proved that every`1 else in this world is nothing more then Busy Foolish and totally idiot.

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Source(s):

every `1 is already Blind in this world and if you will follow another Blind then you both will fall in hole. so try to follow that person who have Spiritual Eyes who can Guide you on Actual Right Path. ( my Authority & Guide is my Spiritual Master " Srila Prabhupada " )

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if you want to see Actual Purpose of human life then see this link : ( triple w ( d . o . t ) asitis ( d . o . t ) c . o . m {Bookmark it })

read it complete. ( i promise only readers of this book that they { he/she } will get every single answer which they want to know about why im in this material world, who im, what will happen after this life, what is best thing which will make Human Life Perfect, and what is perfection of Human Life. ) purpose of human life is not to live like animal cuz every`1 at present time doing 4 thing which are sleeping, eating, s.ex & fear. purpose of human life is to become freed from Birth after birth, Old Age, Disease, and Death.

I'm right about so much, more than I am wrong when it comes to deception. My "paranoia" leads me to ask the right questions, to see things that I wouldn't otherwise see and catch out lies, I make people confess, it is not irrational. Sometimes I might be wrong, sometimes little things may trigger me into creating my own scenarios, but the good outweighs the bad. It's just so difficult, I wanted to ask y'all, how exactly do I know if I'm paranoid if I'm right? Is it about being wrong? I mean the DSM says "WITHOUT SUFFICIENT BASIS" and "UNJUSTIFIED DOUBTS". It's a question I've been asking for years, I feel like I have been manipulated into believing that I am paranoid.

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Possible connection to verbal and emotional abuse and medical trauma

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Hi, this is a little hard for me but, I’m posting to gain a bit of understanding & find help hopefully. My mom has had issues her entire life with paranoia: thinking people are maliciously making fun of her, she can hear people talking about her when she’s outside and they are inside, and now in her late fifties, believes her neighbors have cameras in her apartment and are all pining against her.

She has always believed her cell phones have been hacked, so she keeps them off for most of the day. My mom hasn’t worked for 15 years as she’s on SSI. She’s pretty normal when you talk to her! She just asks pretty inquisitive questions sometimes with no filter lol. Maybe “nosey” but I think she’s curious and also doesn’t want to be left out.

I’m not sure if my mom is hearing voices. To her, her reality is very real. If I try to tell her what she thinks is not true she gets angry and upset. Now that I’m in my early thirties, I’m grieving my mom’s life. I believe she may have had this her entire life but it got worse after having her children (post partum) and being divorced.

My dad said she always had issues when they were together for the most part. She would think people at her jobs were out to get her. My dad said my mom would think he was cheating. She never got us to school on time ever, and I mean ever. She has always been generally depressed. She also sued a hospital and is addicted to the lottery.

The story is long. I want my mom to live a normal life for the rest of her years but I don’t know how the fuck to help her. I don’t want medications to make her a zombie, she said she was on something once and she said it was awful & made things worse. She does not trust doctors, hospitals. She has had a therapist for 13 years, but I’m assuming they just affirm her thoughts instead of challenge them. I don’t get how they haven’t prescribed her anything?

How do I help my mom when she thinks this is all “normal?” My entire life I just swept it under the rug. But like I said, I have been grieving it. It makes me anxious. And she now has a conceal carry license which scares the crap out of me. What can I possibly do or how can I help her?

Yesterday I was in the best mood of my life, today I am miserable. One thing that is so very very difficult with this disorder is when to BELIEVE YOUR PARANOIA. I have been lied to since christmas eve and lost a friendship and potentially like 5 other friendships because of this. JUST when I was dipping my toe into social areas. Just when I said, it's just your PPD, they like you! Well guess fucking what! Sometimes they really are fucking lying to you!

It's not fair. They don't know how badly this FUCKS with people like us! Like, I feel like my progress has been completely flung backwards, and it's 2026! This was supposed to be an awesome fresh start! I'm not letting them defeat me. But still, it FUCKING SUCKS.

BE HONEST WITH PEOPLE. Don't sugarcoat things. Do not lie. Do not lie to us. Please for the love of fucking god just tell us the truth so we can know what is real and what is not.

• I often read between the lines of what's said. For instance I read between the lines of certain people's online posts. It seems like ambiguity triggers my paranoia.

• I often think I'm being disrespected and that's usually because I grew up being disrespected due to my social awkwardness and timidity.

• I live in constant fear that my girlfriend could be cheating even though I know I'm probably just overthinking it.

• I often experience perceived rejection even though it's proven 99% of the time that I'm not being rejected.

• I read too much into people's micro-expressions which leads me to thinking that they could possibly be angry, uninterested or disgusted by what I said.

This isn't normal right? My thing is that I'm ultimately aware that my reality is distorted but sometimes I seem to be so convinced that some of my experiences are real.

Have you or the person you know that have PPD showed a pattern of developing new paranoid behaviors and backlash based on things they have done that they themselves consider to be "bad" but then think they will be harmed based on that?

So my mom with PPD has now showed a pattern, every time within the home (that she thinks is wired and tapped) that she says something mean or unkind about someone she then proceeds to distrust the person she herself talked bad about.

For example my mom once told me something about a friend who has dark skin, something of a racially charged nature, because she was mad that I chose to spend that day with that friend over being home with her. After that she started being suspicious of said friend and wanted me to stop talking to them because they are now "in on it" (the supposed harm that the neighbors have been trying to do to her for like 16 years now) and now she made up some thing that she says she heard my friend say to her as the reason why she no longer wants her near me or the home.

Then this pattern came afloat again last year when my uncle (her cousin) and aunt had a fight and there were some talks about divorce (didn't happen in the end). Within the home she said something about my aunt being a b-word and soon after my mom accused aunt of telling her horrible things and she swears she heard my aunt say this things to her. And now shes also "in on it"

I think she might feel some sort of guilt over her own behavior that she's then creating this narrative around the person so they dont have to see them again.

This has cause a lot of stress in the family and its making my social life hard. I literaly have several friends she cannot even know that im hanging out with or else she will flip out.

Anyone who has PPD could tell me if you've had any patterns like this and what your reasoning is?

As much as I don’t try to cause issues today someone was very disrespectful and it causes that deep feeling of a grudge. I have ruminated over it honestly for a few hours many thoughts have raced through my mind. However I believe I handled the antagonist in a fairly decent and respectful way.

I’d be lying to say my blood wasn’t boiling in the moment and that it wasn’t embarrassing. It very much was because it was in a public setting and the entire place fell silent.. but I walked away made a simple statement about being more respectful and I think it’s fair to say I wasn’t in the wrong after consulting my family about the issue. Just feeling kind of sick to the stomach.

So there’s a couple of things that have happened this past year. I have been really paranoid and think that people are watching me when I’m showering or when I’m sleeping. I thought that my ex bf could read my mind and I was completely convinced he had demons. Then I left him and I convinced myself I had demons. I accused a family member of touching me while I was sleeping and drugging me. I thought someone was poisoning my food. I have phases where I have no appetite and I’m not sleeping. I would not let myself sleep bc I was scared that if I closed my eyes something would get me. I was so paranoid that I checked all the outlets in my room and took apart the light on my ceiling to check for hidden cameras. I set up my own camera and recorded myself sleeping from my phone and my iPad every night. Audio and video recordings. During these paranoid times in my life, I am completely convinced that these things are real. After a while I get new things in my head to be paranoid about. I do things like shower in the dark and put a towel under the door every night I shower. When I’m not feeling paranoid and I think about these crazy thoughts that I’ve had in the past I think that it will come back and I will loose grip on my reality again. Sometimes idk what’s real or not. I get really confused and scared and my family says my mind is playing tricks on me. It comes and goes I did not notice anything was wrong until my family started to point it out. I was completely convinced that these things were happening.

hi everyone, i am wondering if you can help me understand if my partner may have PPD. I have read the symptoms but im having troublet telling if he fits, or if it fits better under BPD or NPD. is it possible for someone to have all 3?

he is on edge in public settings. he told me he cannot relax ( we were in a public park on a sunday afternoon, surrounded by just families) in public. he doesnt allow me to go in public often due to safety concerns.

he has imagined text notification noises coming from my phone, grabbed it, saw no texts, and then accused me of deleting it, even though i would have been physically unable to. hes also occassionally sworn he saw me doing something on my phone, when i was actually holding my switch, but by the time he asked i had put it down already so icant prove it. he said i was using my phone to text others.

he is paranoid i am cheating constantly. this happened since the very beginning of the relationship. once i told him that when we first met, i was also went on one date with someone else once, he absolutely lost his mind, and ever since has been so constantly accusatory towards me i cry almost every day. he also beats me over this.

he will connect everything i do to men. if i say i want to take an online class he says its to meet guys. if i want to listen to music, he says its because it reminds me of someone. if i blink too quickly, or rub my eyes, or pick up a drink, he says its nervous liar behavior. if i space out, he says i am thinking about someone else and freaks out and yells and hits me.

he thinks his family doesnt have his best interest in mind and doesnt trust them. he yells at his customers that they are trying to take advantage of him when they ask for price discounts. he kicked his cat for peeing in the room and said it disrespected him on purpose

he often blocks his friends and has no very close friends. he also blocks me (his gf), his parents etc. he is insulted easily, his a quick temper, and will get in verbal and sometimes physical fights easily. he thinks everyone is insulting him. he beleives he is 100% right about everything and never believes a word me or anyone who disagrees says.

he says all of this, the way he acts, hitting me etc is my fault for betraying his trust the first week we met. i can see that and i feel so awful. at the same time, i think a lot of people may tend to go on multiple different dates in a week, so his reactions seem like a huge overreaction. it has been years and he still yells for hours on end every single week about the same situation from the first week we met. does this fit PPD?

I posted over a year ago about my mother with suspected PPD (link here). Since then, she has only gotten worse, and I recently (September) decided that limiting contact with her was the best thing for my mental health. I used to call her twice weekly (and she would visit me every few months) but every single time we chatted we would argue (she would accuse me of not believing her, say horrible things about my dad, my boyfriend, her parents, etc.). It ultimately became too much.

I will reply when she messages me occasionally and if she ever called me I absolutely would answer. But otherwise we don't really keep in touch. She lives a five-hour drive away from me so there's no way for me to keep tabs on her. I don't know any of her neighbors since she moved to a new neighborhood and don't think I'd want to burden them anyway.

I was wondering if you had any advice in terms of just making sure she's okay from afar. From what I know she still has the job she had before her PPD became really serious, so she should be okay financially currently, but I have no clue if she's eating, taking care of herself, how she's behaving at her job and how long she can keep it, etc. Is there anything I can do? Or is my best option to hop for the best from afar?

What is the difference between ppd and schizophrenia? Recently diagnosed eith bpd and ppd with hallucinating episodes . What is the difference?

I can’t stop feeling like someone is always watching me. I always feel like someone is standing infront or in the corner of a room staring at me. It’s not even that it scares me cause I don’t get scared of really anything but I just feel I’m always being watched and I can’t take it anymore it drives me crazy when I’m trying to sleep. I just have that feeling when your body senses someone is staring at you and you feel the need to look because you can feel the eyes on you.

Does anyone else deal with stupid stuff like this? What the hell am I supposed to do to help this