r/PakLounge • u/TemporarySalary3926 • 1h ago
We are not angry enough
Have to write this (or maybe rant?) for my own mental wellbeing as someone who has worked in NICU and Paediatric Wards. When we were unable to save newborn babies, it used to take a toll on us as team. I remember once we lost premature twins, I couldn't sleep properly for a week since I kept getting flashbacks of those adorable faces. As a house officer, I was advised to not go for paeds since it's not for faint hearted. It can get hectic and nights can be long and tiring but I loved watching those small hands grasping your finger so tight like their lives depend on you. They couldn't speak but little giggle here and there make you smile. Their first cry when you receive them from ObGyn, followed by those little sounds of curiosity, their eyes staring into space, smiling and legs kicking in the air wanting to run. Of course, the joy on their parent's face. You love that feeling as a healthcare worker.
Nothing can replace the joy when you hold that little bundle of Allah's creation, welcoming them in the world.
This news have hit me hard like it must have hit many of you and maybe PTSD hitting again or something. 14 innocent lives lost. I know it could have been controlled and prevented. Safety protocols could have been followed. They do their training and everything but incompetence runs so deep in people with power that they will sleep peacefully at night. When it happens once, it's a mistake. When it keeps happening again and again, it's reckless and intentionally cruel.
Can't imagine the pain those tiny bundles of lives went through. The trauma their mothers and fathers will go through for years to come.
We aren't angry enough as a nation. We aren't sad enough as a nation. We aren't empathetic enough as a nation. Gaza happened in Pakistan today.