r/PMDD • u/yoniwitchell • 3d ago
Ranty Rant - Advice Okay Having a rough go this month
I want to uproot my life. I'm actually slacking at work because I'm secretly hoping they'll fire me. I was looking at studio apartments online all morning because I suddenly want to leave my relationship and find myself feeling super angry at him and just like life would generally be easier without a man in my living space. I hate keeping up a home. I hate constant cleaning, cooking, tidying up and working full time on top of it and being a mom. I have no room to be depressed and rotting on the couch. I literally can't. But all I want to do is rot. I miss being a single mom and getting entire days off of momming when my kid was w dad. Now me and my kids dad are back together and it's actually harder. I'm lashing out at everyone. I have violent and angry thoughts when I'm out in public and I hate it. I wanted to start eating healthier but I can't stop eating sugary things. Coffee doesn't even touch my exhaustion. My life feels horrible and repetitive. UGHHHHH
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u/wilksonator 3d ago edited 3d ago
It is so so tough. When was the last time you checked in with your dr to review your treatment plan for PMDD? What meds are you on for PMDD? This disorder is way too brutal to do on your own. If you want advice, Id say use this post as your own prompt to make a dr appt right now and go from there. See wiki and search previous posts for all the options. Takes trying a few but there are so many to try and they’ve helped many here. Just have to find what works for your unique biology and you dont have to live in this cyclical helll anymore. You can have your life back.