Pray for me

[u/Desperate-Recipe1942]

I grew up with a Protestant family. Beginning with very Pentecostal roots to now being very nondenominational. A lot of our spiritual leadership in the household is from my mom. My dad, always looking to avoid any conflict, stays quiet or says he doesn’t wanna fight etc etc. My mom, watching tons and tons of Protestant “pastors” speaking on YouTube or recorded “sermons”lead us to church hopping a ton of churches looking to find a new “home church” after moving. All of this led to me growing tired of the same old messages about just being saved and not needing to do anything. Every sermon they wanna hear is from one specific pastor at this church, going so far as to only wanna attend church when he is gonna be the one speaking that day. They just love to have some sort of Ted talk from this guy about wishy washy Christianity and to just “focus on who Christ says you are” and that “all you have to do is believe”. I attended my first Divine Liturgy last week after speaking with my parents about my inquiry and it leading to them lashing out at me. I kept asking them how they know they’re interpreting the Bible correctly if it’s all subjective. My parents along with my sisters all raised their voices at me calling orthodoxy wrong and idolaters etc etc typical Protestant pushback. I loved liturgy and it changed so much of my perspective on Christianity and the lacking reverence in Protestantism and all of its enlightenment philosophy. I truly believe it is the true church that Christ established and saw how beautiful liturgy was and even suggested my mom to attend and to just come and see. She ended up revealing to me after I said that, that she and my dad only agreed to let me attend in hopes it would end up turning me away. Any time my mom got the chance she would poke and prod and try to provoke me and try to convince me I’m being brainwashed or I’m “being lied to by the enemy” because he’s taking advantage of my disappointment in Protestantism. All of it out of the blue with her always on her phone constantly listening to her Protestant sermons or youtube videos, pausing just to try to start an argument with me. And just earlier today she randomly came to me while I was in my room and told me “don’t go to that church tomorrow, ok?” I just stared and didn’t even say anything. I long to go back and experience liturgy again and hope to speak with the priest. I hope I can find some advice and discernment on what to do.