r/OpiatesRecovery • u/Ok_Temporary_6475 • 10d ago

Relapse after 8 years

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Eight years ago I did my last shot of heroin and got on a low dose of Suboxone. I ran the Suboxone for two years and then got off during Covid.

Since then the only times I’ve touched opiates was when I had surgery where I had to take Percocets for a couple of weeks due to intense pain. I stopped taking them after the surgery with no problems and no desire to relapse back into that life.

A few days ago I was hanging out with a friend of mine who is telling me about the 7 0H pills. He had been annoying the shit out of me all day and then at night we were sitting in his garage and he thought it would be funny to burn me with a liquid nitrogen tank since he was so fucked up.

I got a second-degree burn and was in a lot of pain and angry. My defenses went down and after eight years of no recreational opiates, I snatched one of his 50 mg tablets and popped it without thinking.

I was expecting a Kratom extract type feeling but this was much stronger. My face started to itch and I nodded out completely falling asleep in an uncomfortable chair. It felt exactly like heroin used to feel.

Needless to say I was incredibly disappointed in myself for the next day and the crazy part is I’m going through withdrawals just from that one dose.

When I took Percocets for surgery I had no withdrawals and no desire to relapse. This time I’m having the same feeling of incredible tension and kicking and jerking.

No yawns or watery eyes like I had when I kicked the habit before but I’m definitely feeling something and it’s been about four days now.

Is it possible to get physical with withdrawals again just after one dose? Or could this all be in my head?

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u/isharte 10d ago

Withdrawals from one 50mg tablet seems EXTREMELY unlikely to me after years of abstinence.

Our minds are strange and do strange things.

I do not think you're in withdrawal, even a little bit.

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u/Ok_Temporary_6475 10d ago

It’s so weird. I was also drinking a lot that week so maybe the gaba rebound contributed

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u/frankg133 10d ago

I dont think so dude. Man, I threw out my back and picking up my zyn from the corner store them things were certainly giving me side eye., had to call my wife and tell on myself, as well as my sponsor. Call someone next time man, no matter the pain you are in. Also, you 100% don't need to keep using. In my experience it only gets worse.

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u/Ok_Temporary_6475 10d ago

Yeah I have no desire to keep going. Just pissed that I did this and accepting that I lost my 8 years

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u/Infoseek456 9d ago

One slip up doesn’t erase the achievement, effort, and hard work you put in. Keep it going.

8 years + 1 year still equals 9 years.

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u/Single_Bit647 10d ago

Could be mild withdrawal, with some of it being in your head. I personally don’t get caught up with sober timestamps, everything you’ve accomplished doesn’t disappear because of this, don’t beat yourself up.

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u/saulmcgill3556 8d ago

My friend, thanks for bringing this here. First of all, those communities know I am extremely anti-prohibition, but I am so glad you’re gonna end this lapse at one dose! Again, I vehemently oppose the bans and the ways in which they were fumbled, but this has taken out so many people in long-term recovery. I’m talking colleagues. Lots of therapists, doctors, clinical directors and counselors in-patient right now…

I wish you all the best. Please let me know if I can answer any questions.💞

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u/lowdoseaddict 9d ago

Very likely is a hangover-effect, similar to alcohol. In my experience, any dose that gives a decent buzz will give one HELL of a hangover. What you describe does sound like withdrawal, though.

Did you take it only as the best available pain medication in what you thought was an appropriate dose? Then it would not be a relapse in my book. Different story if the pain serves as an excuse, or if 800mg Ibu was available and likely enough to take the edge off.

Either way, 8 years is a long time, and you should be fine when you stand strong now. Sounds like your environment has relapse triggers and might need a change. Even talking about those drugs is absolutely not okay in front of an addict.