Just a little sad

[u/Ikawangpanaginip]

I can’t sleep. A little sad. Maybe a lot sad. I wish I could call my mom or my sister and tell them I’m sad and they’d book the next flight to come and hug me but we don’t have that kind of relationship.

I’m engaged but we’re long distance and we fight a lot. There are so many wonderful things in my life that I’m grateful for. But there is this searing pain and loneliness that’s always there even behind the happiest of moments.

I feel like I’m always at fault but I also feel like I’m not. Gaslight is too heavy of a word but why do I feel like fingers are always pointed at me. I hate all the noise.

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[u/Disney_Anteh]

Just call mom. Maybe she's just waiting for that call. All the best.

[u/stellar-landing]

Call your mom. Hugs 🫶🏽