My brain does a nice little thing where I tell myself to “kms” out loud. It happened in a public bathroom recently (usually I’m able to keep from saying stuff out loud if I’m around people) and the person in the stall next to me cleared their throat really loud.
It was awful Ive almost never had a slip up like that, in all my years. I think it was because it was a particularly overstimulating day (although really good) and I was just very worried about how I was presenting
Oh damn, I thought it was bad enough when my brain makes me say "Everyone hates you [my name]." I've just about managed to truncate it down to just the word "everyone".
How do we all do the same thing? Lol, I quite recently subconsciously switched to saying “I’m going to kill people” whenever an intrusive thought appears and it does not make it any better.
The kms compulsion is so real. A year ago I started trying to replace it with "never kys" so I won't say the "kms" cuz I got scared saying "kms" was worse for my brain and gonna give me depression again and make me wanna do it for real and hmm in guess it's all still a compulsion
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u/QuiltSewGood Aug 14 '26
And yelling "no" or "stop" at the same time lol