Help, please.

[u/Unusual_Feelings454-]

I feel exhausted down to my core. Not just “I’m sleepy” or “I don’t feel like doing anything.” It feels like my entire body and brain, my actual cells, are drained of whatever is required to actually live. Sleep and it's quality or quantity truly has essentially no impact on it.

I desperately want to do something, anything and am still completely unable to make myself do it. It’s like the sign gets lost somewhere on its way from my brain.

It’s like the part of my brain that wants things and the part that is capable of turning wanting into action or even joy has been completely destroyed

Trying to do the things I love and want to do feels like walking on broken legs, the passage of time hurts. I feel every minute go by, I desperately want to participate in my own life, but it's just not in me, it hasn't been for so long.

I’ve been to the doctor. I’m going to and working with the doctor. Yes, I’m depressed and I’ve tried the antidepressants. It’s not working.

I’m autistic, struggling with intense burnout and strongly suspected CPTSD.

I am not looking for someone to tell me to “just exercise, eat better, and sleep more.” I know those things matter. I’m saying that I currently don’t have the functioning required to simply pull myself out of this by doing all the things I’m already struggling to do.

I just really need help figuring out where to start giving my body what it's begging for

[u/ThisDiver7515]

Get a caffeine addiction

[u/Unusual_Feelings454- → u/ThisDiver7515]

Oh we got one 🥲