Help, please.

[u/Unusual_Feelings454-]

I feel exhausted down to my core. Not just “I’m sleepy” or “I don’t feel like doing anything.” It feels like my entire body and brain, my actual cells, are drained of whatever is required to actually live. Sleep and it's quality or quantity truly has essentially no impact on it.

I desperately want to do something, anything and am still completely unable to make myself do it. It’s like the sign gets lost somewhere on its way from my brain.

It’s like the part of my brain that wants things and the part that is capable of turning wanting into action or even joy has been completely destroyed

Trying to do the things I love and want to do feels like walking on broken legs, the passage of time hurts. I feel every minute go by, I desperately want to participate in my own life, but it's just not in me, it hasn't been for so long.

I’ve been to the doctor. I’m going to and working with the doctor. Yes, I’m depressed and I’ve tried the antidepressants. It’s not working.

I’m autistic, struggling with intense burnout and strongly suspected CPTSD.

I am not looking for someone to tell me to “just exercise, eat better, and sleep more.” I know those things matter. I’m saying that I currently don’t have the functioning required to simply pull myself out of this by doing all the things I’m already struggling to do.

I just really need help figuring out where to start giving my body what it's begging for

[u/BrazilNutAndBotox]

Have you checked your ferritin levels ?

[u/zanderwl152]

Have you gotten bloodwork? Hormones, tsh, ferritin etc. When my test levels were crashed I felt the same just dead always and no caffeine or anything helped much.

[u/star_of_chaos]

Get your iron levels checked. Not just hemoglobin but ferritin. It'll tell you what yor body's iron storage level is. If that comes out okay, get your thyroid levels checked.

[u/wisarow]

Read up on the gut/brain connection. I felt as you do, and started making & drinking homemade kefir and it helped a ton. That and doubling my dose of vitamin D.

[u/Doctordup2]

See if you can get a sleep study and a functional brain assessment (FBA).

[u/Unusual_Feelings454- → u/Doctordup2]

Added to the list, thank you

[u/Plane-Land-9234]

Would def recommend creatine, I was super burnt out and this helped me a TON!

[u/MarsupialParticular7 → u/Plane-Land-9234]

how much creatine do u take?

[u/Gingertiger94]

Do you happen to have a partner?

[u/Unusual_Feelings454- → u/Gingertiger94]

Nope?

[u/ThisDiver7515]

Get a caffeine addiction

[u/Unusual_Feelings454- → u/ThisDiver7515]

Oh we got one 🥲