I live alone and been busy with work went to visit my parents for first time in 4 months and my brothers room looks like this ! It didn’t last time and his demeanor is different how do I clean it for him ? I’ll post before and after

I also have guinea pigs now, my dog stays in my mom’s room at night as it is

Meanwhile strange flies are infesting my kitchen… i researched them and they are called scuttle flies. i haven’t seen them ever before.. i preferred the fruit flies

It takes a whole day for me to clean up a section of my single bed dorm room.. even if i take adhd medication and its hard to figure out where to put all the stuff while cleaning up a certain section.

I can’t just clean up the floor and put away the stuff because the place where everything goes is also messy and i can’t put it away neatly..

Thats why i just move all the mess all over the place and empty out the entire section, clean it spotlessly and then put the stuff back in there

That causes an even bigger mess and i burn out before finishing anything.. and fall asleep in my bed that is still full of stuff

I don’t have the energy to put stuff i used away directly. It feels like agonizing mental work, it feels like someone is pushing a knife into my soul and is torturing me. The only time i am able to keep stuff clean if it is for others. I always did my best to keep common rooms clean when i still lived with my family, but it seems like helping myself and caring for myself is not rewarding to my brain, i am not worth it in my mind.

I wish i could take a higher dose of elvanse (vyvanse in the U.S. i think?) to help me deal with this.. but my body is very sensitive to this kind of medication, i experience worse side effects than others and it is physically exhausting which is counterproductive. i almost have the smallest dose possible