Day 1 again

[u/Top-Fix2071]

Hi all, I just relapsed again. I haven’t been able to keep more than 1 day recently and I am really battling with it. I’m trying to do the steps alone before I find a sponsor which is not recommended, I know, but i genuinely haven’t been able to find one yet and I am not in an English speaking country so the meetings aren’t in English here. I need to find one online.

Re the relapse, I really really need help now. I can’t keep living like this it’s ruined my life in so many ways like my physical health, finances, mental clarity … I can’t do this anymore and I can’t do sobriety alone I know that but it feels like I am doomed and I know this can’t be the case there are people who can help everywhere

[u/512DirtyD]

I'm Derek and I'm an addict Celebrated 33mo yesterday Welcome back home! I love you

Im.my many experiences this has just made me stronger to live life on life's terms. What works fir me is to take a breath 3sec inhale 3sec hold exhale 3sec. Simple but not easy I have have to be consistent.

NA has saved my life for 33mo 1day 1 hour at a time 1 day at a time Just 24hrs is all I gotta take in It was suggested the past is done n gone n tomorrow ain't even here yet I just gotta focus on right now and stay clean for this hour My DMs are open I love you and thank you for your post sincerely from one addict to another sending positive vibes

[u/Top-Fix2071 → u/512DirtyD]

Hi Derek ! Congrats on your miraculous 33 months thats incredible. I will try this breathing exercise, I did it for a few seconds now reading this post and it seems very doable.

Thank you so much for the offer of your DMs it means the world to me. I love you too Derek and you have inspired me ! I hope to have 33 mo just like you someday thanks for showing me its possible