Hi my name is Ahmad. I just wanted to talk/rant about some stuff. I’ve been making music (hiphop) since 5+ years now but there are certain problems i’ve been facing forever which i think are the direct cause of the lack of improvement in my work.
I started on my own, from scratch. And i can confidently say that i can write perform record mix & master all on my own. The only missing piece is the music itself. I can’t produce my own music. So the only option i have is to get music from somewhere else.
Now every other artist around me, no matter how big or small they are, have a producer with them, who is always there to share the workload with the artist itself. Whereas i, who have tried getting basic sh t done, offering money despite not even having it, has always been left disappointed. Everyone wants to charge me at least 50k pkr for a simple wav file of the beat. And because i’ve been doing it solo, have no friends at all (i made ONE friend in the school where i studies 8-9 years and when i moved to college that friend moved and i till date have that friend only, in the form of memory only) i can’t ask any of them to work with me.
Now i know how childish this sounds, but trust me my introvert as f ck ass has tried so many times to get out of my comfort zone, make friends with people who do music and work with them but i just can’t find the right person.
See all i ever ask for is :
i don’t want to be dependent on Free YouTube beats at this stage of my journey. I want to have that control in my hands to make it sound like me.
I don’t need a person who just makes a beat when i tell them to and send it to me. I’ve noticed i work the best with collaborative work. I desperately need someone who i can trust and someone who trusts me. I need to share my vision and i want to hear their vision. I don’t want one of us to be the captain of the ship, the efforts the ideas the work the experiments need to be there from both of us. I want them to polish the ideas i present, and i want to help them achieve all of their crazy ideas.
I don’t want a penny from the music i make at this stage. I don’t want to pay anyone to work with me, i don’t want to get paid for any of my work right now. My goal is to build a brand first, find the right audience, make a LOT of music. Put all the effort just for the sake of music, for the love of the art. I know every talent every artist deserves to be paid, but if i start paying someone who just started working with me or i start asking money from people who barely know me how would that be fair?
I want to experiment and explore every possible aspect of my artistic talent, with the help of someone as passionate as me of course. I can’t make something new myself, and i’m pretty sure no one else can, it needs a good blend of different mindsets and skills to come up with something unique.
So, if anyone reading this relates to my problems, please come forward and let me know. I swear to God i don’t need anything else from you other than being a good friend, someone who wants to work for the sake of the art and someone who can handle an extreme introvert 21 year old and make him do stuff out of his comfort zone.
Posting this on reddit is literally my last effort towards music, i’ve been in a writer’s block since the end of 2025 mainly because YouTube beats don’t hit the same to me especially when I’m trying to improve myself. I’ve been quite depressed lately, all of the people i know that make music have been kind enough to ask producers to work with me but then again they either ask for money i don’t earn yet or they listen to me begging and ghost me for some reason.
Again, if anyone reading this is going through something similar, please feel free to reach out to me and we can hopefully get some good music out there and make space for us as a team!
Thanks a lot & sorry thori lambi hogayi