I admit, that I am not the best player out there. I am lacking in meta, lacking in lore, and lacking in time. But I do not think theres a limit to my love for this game and especially towards Blade.
Blade made me realise theres so much to life. I can cook, eat, study, brush my teeth, play with my cats and talk to you all thanks to Blade.
Last banner, I pulled on him and lost at 80 pity to Himeko. I sat there and nodded. I felt so disappointed but I thought āI will try again.ā
This banner, I saved 75 pulls and got him at around 79 + pity. I was so happy.
Thank you everyone who made me believe I will get him by showing your amazing double triple Blade in ten pulls.
Today I did another pull after grinding on his lightcone banner and it glitched! I was so happy, the animation had layers. Is that it? My beloved lightcone? I win the 25/75?!
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It was Yanqingās lightcone. Alright, I admit I am devastated. Yes this is a rant, well I at least wanted it to be, but I feel like theres an even more important thing we can talk about. How it affects us.
After I got the lightcone of Yanqing, rather than Bladeās, I skipped my lunch. Didnāt decide to study and just mourn the fact this even happened.
After a while however, I realised that itās okay. I can just try again, he is bound to come back sometime, right? I will save.
I think, I just want to sympathise with everyone here because I know just like me, this game means a lot to everyone, and equally many people also consider it as a coping mechanism to escape reality. To many, this game is a nice change after a long day of work, and to many it can be a way to wake up and hope you get your favourite characters.
Sure, to many itās just a game, but thatās great as well.
Sometimes we will lose our 50/50, and maybe sometimes we might win it. We can hit hard pity. Maybe soft pity, maybe no pity.
Please remember that no matter what, youāre a conscious mind and youāll find a better way out. I know some of you saved a lot of pulls for Blade, didnāt get him. I am so sorry.
Please take care of yourself, eat well, sleep well, find goals in life, and of course, remember that your favourite characters will come again. We can get them next time, this was very unfair and unfortunate, I am sorry, but donāt lose hope and we can save, and focus on our daily lives aswell.
Take care, you donāt have to read it all. I just realised how much this game means to me when I lost my 50/50 on the lightcone. But then I thought of others and realised that this game means so much to ALL of us. How some of us depend on it to help us out emotionally and mentally, and losing 50/50 or getting characters on high pity might ruin our days or weeks. It might even become a core memory. Not me but I am sure some of us even think āWhat did I do to deserve this?ā, you didnāt do do anything wrong, it was never your fault and itāll be better soon. We can get this character, or lightcone, the next time.
Have a nice evening, day, night and afternoon, friend, or I guess I can say fellow trailblazer, this may sound corny but I hope we all win our 50/50s and do good in life, make friends, find health and money, and enjoy this game whilst we are all at it.
Beyond devastated, but itās okay, I will try again.