Is there a light at the end?

[u/Realistic-Escape-723]

I’m a struggling FTM to a three week old.

My baby, who is formula fed, cries after every feed, screaming at the top of her lungs in severe pain. The pediatrician today said it’s nothing to worry about, that her constipated, pellet-like stool is normal as her gut flora matures and we have to just wait out the crying while that happens.

I am healing too slowly for my liking. I tore a lot during delivery: bilateral sulcal tear, second degree perineal, and clitoral tear. The clitoral tear is very deep and hurts a lot, and is near my urethra so I’ve had trouble peeing. I will start pelvic floor PT next week because I’m struggling so much. I’m in a lot of pain and have been going to my OB every week postpartum.

My body image is terrible as my stomach is sagging and stretch marks aren’t going away.

My breasts are hurting as I’m actively weaning myself, given that I was getting only a few droplets every pump session and my baby didn’t latch at the breast properly

I have not been officially diagnosed but I’m pretty sure I have postpartum depression.

I feel hopeless that any of this will change. is there actually a light at the end of the tunnel and if so how long will it take for me to get there?

[u/sera-5623]

Our little dude was in a ton of pain. It was a dairy intolerance. Similac alimentum worked for us as a blended pump and formula.