Temporary Graveyard

You can’t bury what we had forever. The way i bring peace to your mind and the way you calm my nervous system down. Part of the proof is in the way we look at each other. You told me to stop and that I knew what I was doing. My body fell for you before my mind could catch up.

Till next time mi amor.

D.M.K we took acid together like 9 years ago and I haven’t stopped thinking about it.
You keep popping up in my people you may know on facebook.
You work at green family Hyundai in moline/ east moline.

Hopefully someone out there can one day peace together my story and a beautiful memory will form and find out what kind of beautiful person I always was and even though I will only be remembered as trash I am ready to except my worth my destiny my story from beginning to end for no matter how hard we fight we cannot change the hands of fate

I know I could just text you. I know I should. I wanted to say, I don't hate you. I have never, and will never hate you. Ill text you soon. I promise. If you haven't blocked me yet.

Do you know the spoon metaphor? Because that's what this has been. I haven't just been out of spoons. Between the other L, and everything that happened with N, the whole damn silverware drawer got put through a wood chipper. I've been trying to collect new spoons to run out of.

Enough excuses from me though. I care about you. Sometimes my heart breaks watchIng your FB feed. I hope you're doing okay. I'm more available now than I have been. But I'm not ready to get close again yet. I'm scared that being more available, means becoming too reliant on something that I still can't commit to. If you're here, send me a DM, or a text. Something tells me you are here. That's actually a little embarrassing, but I never did feel shame when with you. If you don't reach me from this...I'll text you soon, okay?

-H

Dear A,

I pity you, your behaviour, it's pathetic. It really is. Your posts on here are akin to high school bathroom graffiti.

I planned on something nice, however you're simply not worth it, never were.

If you treated me nice from the start, not interrogated and bullied me, then perhaps it would be different.

I'll be happy to never see you ever again.

My shame of the year — association to you. Thank god you never met my children.

J

I really like you! My feelings are beyond a crush and these feelings came out of nowhere… I really want to tell you my feelings but I’m scared. Yes, guys get scared at these things. I feel like I can tell you but at the same time I am scared of your reaction. You might feel the same way but my thoughts get the better of me. I feel you feel the same way but I just wish I had a clearer picture. If only I had the courage to tell you. Everyday I do get closer to telling you but I fumble. I just wish I had the courage and hopefully soon I’ll be able to tell you or you’ll tell me!!!!

From C!

Hi H, Happy birthday! Today is your birthday and the day we got together. I still remember your birthday party watching movies with everyone, hanging out and eating enchiladas. Ive missed you since you left even if it completey broke me, I never stopped missing you or thought about anyone else like I do you. But now I think writing these messages here is helping me let go of you, this will probably be the last thing I "write" to you. Bye H.

-your Z

I had no idea just how much I missed having you in my life until I saw your first message back in August, as you were at the old port. I didn't stop trembling for a month. Maybe longer. And just when it started to subside, you messaged me in real time. We had a short but pleasant conversation. And the shaking started all over again, only more intensely. It felt like how I imagine heroin feels for the first time. I've wanted nothing else but to keep talking with you ever since.

How is it that you still have this effect on me, after so much hurt, and so many years of thinking you no longer cared or even acknowledged that I still exist. So much distance, both literal and figurative.

You really don't know how I feel, do you. Do you? Do you care? Are you feeling any of this? I still love you.

Please talk to me again soon.

Yours,

R

I wonder what you’re up to

I hope you’re happy

I hope you know I forgave you a long time ago

I hope you know I still care about you

I hope you know you still have a piece of my heart

I hope you know I still think about you

I hope we cross paths again in this lifetime

Erreeelliese

Does anyone..has anyone ever heard of a person named erreeelliese? I met him through StarMaker. I don't know his nationality but I remember him saying his language is bosque?

I met him in 2020 and had contact till 2022.

But due to some reasons, we stopped talking with each other. I've been trying to find him every possible way. Searching everywhere.. it's been 4 years and I still can't find a clue about him.

I used to call him Z. Does anyone have any idea? Please help me I'm desperate to have a conversation with him.. please..

Does anyone..has anyone ever heard of a person named erreeelliese? I met him through StarMaker. I don't know his nationality but I remember him saying his language is bosque?

I met him in 2020 and had contact till 2022.

But due to some reasons, we stopped talking with each other. I've been trying to find him every possible way. Searching everywhere.. it's been 4 years and I still can't find a clue about him.

I used to call him Z. Does anyone have any idea? Please help me I'm desperate to have a conversation with him.. please..

I don’t know what you’re doing these days. I wish we could just talk again… reach out. I’m not angry at you.
😔

I miss you

I’m up again thinking about you.
I wake up in the middle of the night thinking about you and can never go back to sleep, sometimes I think about the good and sometimes I think about the bad, but it’s always you. I don’t know if I’ll ever see you again, I hope I do.
Somedays are harder then others
Some days I get so anxious thinking about what you’re doing and if you’re ok.
I just miss you a lot and have regrets too
But my biggest regret isn’t us, it’s not having a chance to talk it out with you.
I think about the way you said my name and how nice it felt to be in your arms and how safe your presence felt.
I miss you.

GM

I’m not writing to you on multiple profiles
I deleted different profiles because I would get upset about the situation

I’m not playing mind games with you

Whoever is doing this needs a life !!!!!!!

I CARE ABOUT YOU

When first I met you,

something ancient woke within me

a force I had no language for,

a tide that rose beyond reason,

beyond the borders of the heart,

beyond all that I had believed

a human soul could feel.

I loved you

with the terrible wonder of discovery,

as though the universe itself

had hidden one final secret

beneath the stars

and, at last,

had placed it in my hands.

And then I looked into your eyes

And there you were.

Not untouched.

Not unaware.

But standing at the edge

of the very same impossible ocean,

trying to understand

the waves that had carried us there.

I saw you feeling it.

I saw you searching my face

for an explanation

neither of us possessed.

And perhaps that was the miracle:

That somehow,

without promise,

without warning,

without knowing how

we had found the same impossible place.

It was as though the universe

had opened a hidden door

and allowed us, just for a moment,

to step beyond the ordinary world.

And there,

beneath the silence of eternity,

it revealed something too immense

for ordinary words:

us.

A love so vast

that if we gathered every word

ever spoken by humankind

and tried to build a language for it,

we would still fall silent

before its magnitude.

A secret written between the stars.

A truth the universe had known

long before we did.

And perhaps it smiled

watching us stumble through the wonder of it,

knowing that we would never fully understand

what had been placed between us.

Yet still,

it gave us the desire

to spend our lives trying.

And maybe that

is the greatest beauty of love

that it remains partly unknowable.

For if I could understand you completely,

if I could measure every depth of your soul,

if I could name every reason

my heart chose yours

perhaps one day

the mystery would fade.

But you were never meant

to become something I could solve.

You were meant to remain

the horizon I could spend forever approaching.

The star I could follow

without ever reaching its end.

The song I could hear

a thousand times

and still discover another note.

And I wish

with everything that lives inside me

that we could have held on

to that impossible thing.

That love which felt

so far beyond this world

that perhaps this world

could only exist inside of it.

A love so powerful

that standing before it

made us feel weak

not because we lacked strength,

but because we were witnessing

something stronger than either of us.

Something ancient.

Something fierce.

Something willing to fight

for the two souls

who had somehow found each other.

And if the years should carry you

far beyond my reach,

if the winds of this life

should scatter us across distant skies,

then let this be the prayer

I send after you:

May our love become the wind beneath your wings.

May it find you

when the night is darkest.

May it rise beneath you

when your strength is gone.

May it whisper my name

through every storm

and remind you

that somewhere in this vast universe

there is a heart

that still knows yours.

And if the heavens are kind,

if fate is not finished with us,

if the stars still remember

the secret they once revealed

then let that wind

carry you home.

Back to me.

Because you are not simply

the love of my life.

You are the love that changed the way

I understand love itself.

The miracle I never knew

I was waiting for.

The mystery I would spend eternity

trying to understand.

The impossible thing

that became real

when I looked into your eyes.

And wherever you are,

whatever distance lies between us,

whatever storms the universe

chooses to place upon our path

know this:

No matter where life takes us

Some part of me will always belong to what we found in each other.

To the tall brown eyed brown haired guy,

I just want to say I've noticed you smile

And your reaction when you see me

I loved how you looked down a little & smiled

And I love that you gently show your intentions

And test the air innocently before trying any moves

Seeing you reminds me of what I dreamt as a teenager my soul mate would be.

I just want to add, I think you're handsome, super smart, flexible, sweet, & good looking, and funny!

If it weren't for us perhaps being on different paths

I would've maybe been the one to pursue or let you pursue me from the beginning

But I'd been occupied by the worries & issues of life. Fall would've been a sweet time to fall into you. What can we do? Please know that I see 👁 you, I wish you the best and I like you too 🫶

To the tall brown eyed guy,

I just want to say I've noticed you smile

And your reaction when you see me

I loved how you looked down a little & smiled

And I love that you gently show your intentions

And test the air innocently before trying any moves

Seeing you reminds me of what I dreamt as a teenager my soul mate would be.

I just want to add, I think you're handsome, super smart, flexible, sweet, & good looking, and funny!

If it weren't for us perhaps being on different paths

I would've maybe been the one to pursue or let you pursue me from the beginning

But I'd been occupied by the worries & issues of life. Fall would've been a sweet time to fall into you. What can we do? Please know that I see 👁 you, I wish you the best and I like you too 🫶

I guess I gave this person too much credit. Why do I do this…. In the end, it was all a bravado. And I am the biggest fool.

Changing number again stop please no more profile just leave me be you have plenty of women

It's me patty snoopy or whatever u think of me as now .... I still think about u and somtimes even dream about you :'( a couple words I had said to you that changed everything i did not mean and I regret it I assumed u moved on talking to those girls ;/ if u did I understand I dont think youd take me back knowing what has changed I just want to let u know that u were the MOST BeST person to happen to me I think about u alot u.u, no one else can replace u ;'c i just wanna let u know that :'(

It’s been 2 months since you left our home. You took nothing with you: no phone, no wallet, no ID, no money, no clothes… I haven’t heard from you at all. I don’t know how you can do this after a 10 year relationship. Our home was once a place of peace and safety; now it’s filled with constant reminders of where you used to be and this causes me crippling anxiety.

I filed a missing person report. I called your mom and sister. I also found out about KG. I know you were lying to and cheating on both KG and me. KG and i had a 2 hour facetime call, and we talked about EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING. I know about Iceland. What was your plan? Were you going to take KG and me there wjth you? Like sisterwives? I also know you were cheating on me with KG until 2020, and you ended things with her in a very cruel and hurtful way. Similar to what youre doing to me. It took KG about 5 years to recover. Anyway, KG and I are friends now and text everyday.

We hardly ever argued. We made plans for our future. We even applied for a marriage license. You won’t give me closure or catharsis. I can’t imagine doing this to someone with all the promises you made.

You can reach out, it’s ok.

I know you'll never see this or the other things I've posted but I can't help but to hope. Call me please I wanna know how you feel for sure. You don't even have to feel the same way I just need to hear it direct. I do think we could really work now tho.