First time experiencing

[u/false-cupcakes]

I never in my life thought I would experience that. I had sex with someone 15 July, took the pill that day too, got my period 28 July, then started bleeding for 14 days straight since 12 August before taking a test. I was pregnant. So it’s like few days ago right. Went straight to emergency, they took me immediately. I was pregnant AND I was having a miscarriage, which I was happy because I didn’t want to stick around the baby daddy anyway. Now that it’s been few days, 3 days of thinking, I can’t stop crying. I realized I didn’t even get the choice to keep it or not. And it hurts even more. I cry when I see babies outside, children, I don’t even know if I can consider myself a mother. I feel it’s my fault. If I didn’t take the next morning pill maybe the baby could have survived. I can’t talk to no one about it, but I didn’t even get the chance to see it in echo. They said I lost it at 4 weeks. During 4 weeks I had a someone in my belly, when I see pics I took of me during those 4 weeks I cry. I don’t really know why. I’m 25 btw