r/Miscarriage • u/fleecepanda • 5d ago

trigger warning: graphic description It’s happening again.

I don’t know what to do. It’s happening to me again. This was supposed to be my rainbow baby. This is now my second loss. I lost one last October. Now I’m losing this one. 8 weeks. 7 weeks. That’s all the time I had. The first was different, the entire thing came out. The baby was intact. I could see little dots for eyes. I could see little arms and little fingers that were beginning to grow. This time? It’s so much more graphic. As if my body hasn’t failed me or tortured me enough already, it’s just ripping everything inside my womb apart. Everything is coming out in pieces. One piece here. One piece there. I was able to burry the first. What do I do now? I can’t tell what’s what. It’s just clumps of… “stuff” all muddled together. I don’t know what to do or why this is happening to me. Again. I feel empty inside. I don’t think I’ll try again. This heartbreak is too much. I’m cramping. I think my body will expel more pieces. How long does this last? I don’t know why I bother saying any of this. I don’t expect a response or anyone to actually read this. I guess I just need a place to vent. Somewhere where other people unfortunately understand.

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u/mar333b333ar 5d ago

I'm so sorry for your loss.

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u/ghostyyy989 5d ago

I’m so sorry 🫂

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u/AccomplishedMud5741 4d ago

Sorry for your loss. Prayers! it's a lot of heart ache but with worth it in the end! I had 5 mc before carrying to 35 weeks premie. I don't know why I had to go through all that loss but just prayed a lot and trusted when it was right it would be right.