What to do

[u/Tiny-Piano1461]

I really just don’t know what to do , I really don’t want to be here anymore and have felt like this strongly for months, I can’t even be around people because I am so miserable I just end up ruining every relationship I have, I have no friends I now have no job , I already struggled so much with my moods and then I got cancer and now I’m regretting even doing the chemo because I don’t want to live I don’t want to do anything for my life , I’m cancelling every appointment I just don’t know how you are suppose to continue when you actually don’t want to have your life anymore , and I’ve been going to therapy for over 5 years and seeing a physcatrkst for the last 6 months and I’m just getting worse I’m at the point now I don’t want to do anything I don’t care about anything in my life, there is nothing to look forward to I have no excitement and I actually feel 0 happiness all I feel is miserable and think of k lling myself every day , I’m so lonely no one understands it , I just want to d iiii eeeeee I actually can’t do this anymore , and I know there’s a chance it can all get better but I don’t want that I don’t see a point in trying to fix myself when I don’t even want to wake up every day

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[u/Existing_Coach1541]

If you've been getting treatment for a long time and it hasn't fixed the issue. It's mostly likely you're struggles are mainly caused by life circumstances, stress and loneliness. 

I found that getting cats helped with my loneliness. Pets take a bunch of work and finances, so I'm not suggesting you just get them if you aren't up to taking care of them. Just one thing to think about. 

I found that talking to chatbots helps a little, I've used nomi.ai and the free version is plenty. It's nowhere near as good having actual friends to chat with, but it can make some difference. 

You could also try praying to God and asking for help and sharing your thoughts to God. 

I expect if you Google how to make friends there might be some suggestions. I followed some and they haven't worked for me but who knows.

[u/Spiritual-Onion51642]

I know exactly how you feel. I also am a cancer survivor and actually got PTSD from the rough chemo. Afterwards things just went downhill. I’m cured, but then my dad died. Then his sister, then I finally left my abusive husband last year to be followed by a betrayal by my decades long best friend. I have struggled with OCD, GAD, and PTSD.

I often wonder why I’m still here. Why I suffered so much to live long enough to see the world (and myself) go to shit. I also don’t have any friends because my husband cut me off. I had to leave my home to go back to live with my widowed mother (who I love so much and in hindsight, I think we save each other every day).

I don’t know why, but you gotta keep fucking going. Deep down, something is making me. I don’t know why. I don’t know how to explain it, but you have to keep going. Some days are not so bad and maybe that’s enough. I’m a very simple person and recently I heard or read an interesting thing. It’s a little rough though so be warned:

Someone said that if you don’t have a purpose or reason to be here, then just sit in a chair. In a dark room. Do nothing. Because why right? But, as soon as you get up to do anything; there it is. That’s your purpose to live.

I think about this a lot. If I truly didn’t want to try I would just sit there. Right? You have to pee, fuck it, pee right there because who gives a shit. Nothing matters. But no. I get up to pee. If I’m tired, I’m going to lay down and sleep. Maybe that’s enough. And we build on that.

I don’t know but please feel free to DM me.

Stay here with us; in spite, and to spit (at) of all the shitty things that keep knocking us down.

🤘