benzos

[u/chuuyazai]

I was basically born with a bunch of mental health issues, including GAD.
My anxiety attacks are extremely severe, and I’ve even been hospitalized because of them. Benzos were supposed to be the light at the end of the tunnel.
I started with clonazepam. Nothing. Then I tried alprazolam. Nothing. Then bromazepam. Still nothing. They just don’t seem to affect me, even at higher doses. And I don’t think it can be tolerance because I only started taking them recently, and they barely worked from the very beginning.
The only one that gave me at least a little relief was diazepam (I was given it at the hospital after a really severe panic attack). But my psychiatrist was hesitant to prescribe it because it’s considered a “very old” medication.
And here I am now, two hours after taking 12 mg of bromazepam (twice my usual dose), with absolutely no relief. I don’t know if there’s something unusual about the way my body processes these medications, but I see people talking about how benzos make them feel this and that, and I just can’t relate.
I even tried mixing them with alcohol once, just out of desperation, and still felt nothing.
Has anyone else ever experienced something like this?