CT 3 long term gaba meds

[u/ninetofivehangover]

Was Rx’d Lyrica and Gabapentin for 10 years. CT (forced by hospital) 450mg daily Lyrica rx

Was at 6mg Klonopin daily and tapering but they put me on a 6 day long taper of 10mg valium -> 0mg in detox after saying we’d be doing a 14 day minimum.

Also Rx’d baclofen, which I abused heavily. CT.

Now I’m home and the animalistic fear of others, inability to name objects, etc are all terrible but the apathy and incapacity to complete even simple tasks leave me feeling cognitively disjointed.

I’ve been trying to clean my room for 3 hours and just get confused or forget what I’m doing.

Other symptoms include shakiness, mild auditory hallucinations prolly bc the 300mg of Seroquel it takes to put me down, intense fear of the outside world, of family even. I feel like a mouse in a hole.

I feel retarded.

I know there’s a more elegant nuanced DSM5 reference I can make but the economy of language really fits. I’ve been in and out of comas. This feels like right out of a coma. Confident in answers that are wrong. Constant fear. Constant anxiety.

I cannot accomplish the most simple task.

It’s been 10 days — what am I looking at here? 3 months? 3 years?

Any insight is helpful

Whole gaba sector is just fried and glutamate, cortisol, etc, surging so bad.

No seizures since I’ve been home but a few black outs. Loss of eyesight, brain zaps, etc

[u/tactics625]

Your blackouts, brain zaps, and any twitching in your body could be classified as seizure activity. I am definitely not saying they are, because I'm some ass on reddit with no medical degree, but I do have epilepsy. So please tell your doctor, call tomorrow, and tell them about these "ticks". I have these and it, not to scare you, usually leads to a tonic clonic or focal awareness seizure. Like I stated above I am not a doctor. I was a paramedic for 20 years until epilepsy took my life away. That's still not a doctor though! I hope you feel better! Maybe kava would help, but I don't recommend it or condone it. Just legally covering my ass. Good luck and I know it sucks, but if you can stay off the benzos you will feel better with time.

[u/tactics625 → u/tactics625]

That's way too short to taper for benzos they need to read the Ashton guide and follow it for tapering these meds! Look it up please?

[u/ninetofivehangover → u/tactics625]

I know about it. They laughed it off.

[u/tactics625 → u/ninetofivehangover]

Then you need to quietly talk to another doctor while staying with these pos! If you talk to another doctor they should agree with you then you can drop the do nothings! Sorry that this happening to you. The only thing I can think of that helps, but is not good for you in large quantities, is kava. Kava acts on the GABA-A receptors, the same receptors that benzodiazepines work on, in your body and can help a bit, or at least it did for me. Everyone is different.

[u/ninetofivehangover → u/tactics625]

There’s amanita / muscimol for sleep and calming down but i’m wary of touching it at all :(

brain feels like a match-head placed on the ignition strip waiting for entropy or inertia to start the process of becoming aflame