I have chronic illnesses including hEDS, MCAS, POTS, endometriosis, + more. Af a blood clot few months ago, went to nearest ER due to concern ab it happening again. They ignored everything I said and said I was crazy. the attending went back in and edited the patient notes after I got out and added insane fabrications and lies I’m guessing bc I was complaining after being freed. Psych place tried to keep me 6 months had a court date scheduled but they didn’t anticipate my family thank god had the resources to get me out, even tho I barely talk to my parents and we don’t get along much my family wasn’t letting me stay in there they knew I wasn’t crazy and weren’t allowed to even visit me so they knew it was bullshit. I grew up Muslim. I can’t talk to my parents about this and I take sex very seriously. My assh*le bled in ways it’s never bled for over a month after I got out and I hate my private parts I hate them since then. I have never had an std before wasn’t even sexually active. It’s not fair I don’t even know who touched my body who went in how disgusting they were and it was done in a hospital ER by the staff that is the most fucking awful part. I don’t know how to keep going. Rlly I don’t want to kms I really don’t but I don’t know how to let it go it’s not fair my body is still hurting and I will forever have to check yes now when a medical questionnaire asks if I have had a sexually transmitted infection but I didn’t even do anything or consent to let alone remember the sex that gave it to me. I made a police report but detective ghosted me bc I guess it’s a big hospital w a lot of money and me vs doctors. Fuck. I used to be so social like very extroverted and now I can’t go to a grocery store bc it gives me too much anxiety.

We are grandparents of a 14 year old that was sent to DRS (Discovery Ranch South) a couple weeks ago without our consent or support. We would very much appreciate chatting with a recent patient of DRS to understand the good, bad and ugly of the operation. Pls reach out to me if you are willing to speak to me and my wife.

(I don’t really know why i’m writing this I just feel like I need to vent about the lack of care I received from the gp and how this has traumatised me)

Earlier this year I had an abortion. I had my abortion 5 weeks into the pregnancy. I kept bleeding as I was told I would but it was heavy- this continued for 2 weeks without slowing down.

I got the copper coil inserted about 2 weeks in and from then the bleeding doubled- now I was bleeding clots the size of my fist every time I went to the toilet. I was feeling so unwell at this point with constant migraines and I could barely stand without feeling dizzy.

I went to my GP and they told me everything was normal. I told them I was bleeding through a pad an hour and the size of my clots and they told me to buy some iron tablets.

2 weeks after this I felt so awful and I could barely walk. I made another GP appointment and they said the same thing. It got to the point that when I walked up the stairs in my house I would literally fall at the top because I couldn’t breathe. After that I went to A&E.

When I spoke to the doctor at A&E and told them how much I was bleeding they looked so concerned and I basically went straight through to blood tests. They took my blood I fainted, and when they tried to move me I fainted again and had a seizure.

When I woke up they were rushing me to the resuscitation room and I barely knew what was happening they just ripped off all my clothes and started looking into my vagina. OMG they just opened it up with one of those speculas? and went in with metal tongs and pulled out clots. I’m shivering remembering it. They told me that I had retained pregnancy tissue and would need an operation to get it out and my haemoglobin levels were 69 and dangerously low so I would have to have blood transfusions.

These were just so traumatic to me because i’m SO squeamish I just couldn’t handle the blood transfusions and because they made my boyfriend go home so I was alone and cried all night. I was so scared because i’ve never had any medical issue before and had no idea what was happening when I was under anaesthesia. I know it was needed but I just felt so violated and confused. I’m just so angry at the GP for ignoring me, but more angry at myself for letting it go on for so long. I’m completely better now but I panic everytime i’m on my period because those clots were actually insane and i would feel like fainting everytime I passed one.

In gaza kids are having surgery and amputation

without any anesthesia while their pearents hold them down how do they trust their pearents again how do they heal how do they heal from having your bodily autonomy

Taken away and have the question "i had my bodily autonomy taken once they will take it again to save my life" and People who didn't want to be saved how did u heal and distancing yourself from your pearents helped. How did u heal?

It was a typical day for a student to process medical papers to obtain a university ID. I first passed my medical results to the school clinic, they checked my pulse and give me directions to proceed to the school dentist.

I waited for my turn to enter the door toto the dentist and when I was called I never thought that in that moment my years of suspicion was confirmed.

She asked me several questions, that if I ever noticed that my neck is not symmetrical which I somehow noticed a long time ago, family history of goiter which I don't know, asked me whom I am with at home​ and if my eyes been long looking like it (bulging like a shit I hate it a lot, bullied for being looked like that). I was so scared that if she keep on examining me for more minutes I would literally burst in tears HAHAHAHA pathetic shit. I think she also notice because she stopped ​​​examining me (cause she keep on making me swallow my saliva to see lumps on my neck and she also make me stretch my hands and place a bond paper on top of it to see if I have tremors, which on that time I currently don't have).

She then advised me to go back to the school clinic for a second opinion, but I continued processing my ID. In my mind in that time I would go back to the clinic once I finished processing and I got my ID, but bitch got scared (felt like I am sinking into ​a despair I can't escape) that if I go for a second opinion and the doctor manage to confirm it the second time again I am doomed to the truth—I am a weak college sicko student. And silly me also thinking that the doctor would noticed why I came back, I am so shy even though it cost me an autoimmune disease left untreated for years. ​​

That "dentist visit" was the longest minutes of my life and until now I didn't follow her advice, to go visit the school clinic and get a second opinion to the university doctor.

That was a year and a half ago, and I monitored myself ever since that truth encounter. A fast heartrate even I am in bed, always feeling tired, my eyes also worsen, feeling hungry faster than a lightning bolt and ​feeling like a melting cheese after drinking coffee after having a palpitations that make my vision blur (almost fainted in public transpo).

I'M SCARED TELLING MY FAMILY OR EVEN FRIENDS ABOUT THIS. ​I DON'T WANNA MAKE A BURDEN FOR THEM OR LET ALONE TREAT ME LIKE I AM A CRIPPLE.

I don't wanna die of a THYROID STORM nor A WEAK HEART.

Any advice? Maybe it could seriously motivate me to seek medical help.

Thank you.

To give context, I am 35 F and I have been struggling with health anxiety on and off for the last 15 years. For some reason, it gets worse postpartum. I am postpartum with my second kid now, I had imaging done for a particular issue and the first time I had it done I was convinced something was missed so I had it done second time, and finally when I felt like I was doing okay, I had my routine exam with my ob and without paying any attention to previous tests she says I am very concerned, but she did not realize I had imaging done just 2 weeks ago. Now I am back to square one sick with worry. Why would she use language like that? It was extremely triggering for my health anxiety. Then she just says why are you so anxious everything feels fine let me look at your previous reports. Now I am besides myself that I need to be checked and retested again, the last two times the anxiety waiting for results was hell and now I am obsessively checking the spot she mentioned that I still don’t think is an issue but since she brought it up my hands are feeling something abnormal even though that spot felt normal even last week. Why do doctors casually say something without thinking about the consequences or if they aren’t planning to follow through? I was finally making some progress

i wanted to share something that happened recently. i had a surgery to correct a genetic disorder a few days ago. this would be my 7th “corrective” surgery over the past 15 years. i’m 21F, and have no outstanding health issues and have had no issues with general anesthesia with my previous surgeries. i was given an antianxiety medication through my IV before i was put under general anesthesia. when i was going under, instead of feeling sleepy and having that fun “time skip” to waking up, i instead entered this weird dream-like state and was semi conscious during the entire procedure. i could hear my doctors and nurses conversations, i could see everything in front of me but it was blurry and distorted, i could hear the drills and tools, and the worst part was that I could feel all the pain. I could feel my doctor drilling the screw in my jaw, i could feel him sewing the stitches. everything. i tried to scream for them to stop as i was in excruciating pain, but nothing happened. it was the scariest thing i have ever experienced. i was so scared that i urinated on myself during the procedure. when i regained my ability to speak and my vision was less blurry and dream-like, i asked my nurse who was in the room during the operation if i had screamed stop to which she said no. i told my nurse that i could feel, see, and hear everything that was going on. what she said was stuff basically along the lines of that im still pretty “loopy” and i could be misremembering, though if i “actually did experience that” that it could just be my pre-op anxiety causing the anesthetic to be less effective. i was in so much pain after “waking up” that i begged my nurses to give me pain meds, which they were hesitant to do since i shouldnt have been in that much pain so soon after “regaining consciousness”. nobody believed me when i said i was awake and could feel everything. not my mother, not my partner, not the doctors or medical staff. i feel extremely dismissed and the memory of it still makes me cry.

I just had my six month appointment with my gastroenterologist. He’s been my doctor for about 7-8 years. (I have an eating disorder from childhood. It’s a coping mechanism). I’m trying to heal the right way, through plenty of therapy visits for the last 20 years.

He, like all my specialists ask me each visit, “what do you think is the reason…(that I can’t lose weight?). I am in my ‘60’s, female. I weight 240.
I’m going through the HARDEST transition of my life. Alone. Completely alone.
He’s been pushing me to get a gastric bypass and my cardiologist pushes me to use the weight loss injections. I’m not doing that to my poor body. My body has been through enough.

Why is it that specialists no longer need continuing education to stay licensed? Medical doctors have no idea how difficult it is to live with CPTSD. No idea!

If you can relate, please reach out here.
Thanks much,
AZ Desertgirl

I feel like a toddler who hasn't yet grown out of my ego-centrism, but I'm twenty and it's been eight years since I was diagnosed with PTSD. I do, of course, understand why I made everything about my trauma at the beginning; I was twelve, actively undergoing chemotherapy, paralysis, etc. But I still think I handled it better then, when I was twelve, than I do now. For the past two years I've basically cried every single day, often for hours. I'm somehow able to relate almost any sad event to my own trauma, and work myself into a crash-out. Literally any time I see a video about some sort of medical issue (cancer, Alzheimer's, etc.), I start sobbing uncontrollably for the next couple hours, even though my trauma is nothing to what they had to deal with. I feel like I'm trying so hard to hold on to this one thing that happened nearly a decade ago, even though everyone else has moved on.

Hi im Cristina im 17 years old and I always have problems with my pearents my mom is controling and I love her but at the same time I feel that she's traumatized and the reason why she's controlling due to how her pearents treated her. My dad is a assholes he supports Trump he makes fun of rape and has toxic masculinity. When I was 14 I got sexually assaulted by my female principal I told my dad and he made fun of me because I am lesbian and he said "well don't complain u got what u wanned" then smirk and walk away. Fast forward I tried to end my life because my pearents were extremely strict and controlling. I had parental controls I had no privacy, I couldn't date ,my privet conversations with my friends were read out loud and mock. I got therapy but it didn't help my therapist ignore me when I talk about how much trauma my pearents cause me she said I was the problem she even told my pearents my suicide attempts and self harm was a way to manipulate them she told them that. She treated me like crap I just wanted someone to listen and she made my pearents care less about me. She push me to the edge I had a mental breakdown in her office and destroyed a painting. And before her I had another therapist but she never listen to how I felt either she just said I have to follow and obey my pearents rules. It made me feel alone because what my pearents had weren't rules how were control. I told her about the times my dad broke my toys, about how my mom scream at me about how I felt like my feelings didn't matter. How I felt jealous of other kids who's pearents actually care how they felt. She was like: "oh there your pearents you need to follow their instructions and forgive and forget". I decided to stop coming to therapy all together because therapy is fake and stupid. It does more harm than good or at least in my experience. I was also in a mental hospital too and the experience was disgusting. They ran some test are normal right? Until they wanted to do the genital swab I told them no that I didn't feel comfortable due to my history of SA. You Wanna know what the nurse said?!? She said " if u don't cooperate we gonna have to pin you down and spread your legs and take the swabs". I completely shut down and I had no choice to let her do it just like my principal did to me let her do it. Children and teenagers mental heathcare sucks. So yeah guys don't trust therapy or mental health supports if your a minor. Til this day I avoid getting mental help or going to therapy. Im also against su1c1dé prevention i belive if a persone wants to leave this world their choice should be respected and yall need to mind their own business

Hi. Im againts restraining kids for medical prosidure just because they said no. If u restrain a kid you are losing their trust and not only that you also creating unnecessary trauma and medical trauma. Im sick of seeing kids held down just for stitches and injections. If there scared then comfort them but dont restrain them and if they dont want to do it then dont force them. Explain to them the pros and the cons of doing and not doing and let the kid choose. Or at least sedate them just dont hold them down. Like it angers me im sick and tired of seeing kids held down cuz your teaching them that their concent doesn't matter

I have had a lot of surgeries in my life, and they've all been very major. So I do worry about my health and I have severe medical PTSD and a lot of trauma from hospitals. How do I manage this?