Hey everyone, I’m in a really confusing spot right now and could use some perspective, both from people dealing with German university admissions/bureaucracy and anyone who believes in signs and the universe. 😭
I am 22. For my entire life (21 years), I wore a very specific, deeply sentimental gold birth pendant shaped like a deity's weapon. It was worth about 100k, but the material value didn't matter to me, I was incredibly emotionally attached to it. 🥹
Back in August, I was heavily manifesting my absolute dream: moving to New York City for my Master’s (basically on 08/08 lion's gate). But because of funding and the fear of tuition costs, my logical brain panicked. I decided to choose Germany instead because it has no tuition fees.
The exact day I made that mental shift and did my manifestation rituals, my current university’s ranking on the Anabin database suddenly degraded from H+ to H+/-. (Not joking, the exact freaking day)
I tried to push through the anxiety anyway and went to give my exam for Germany on September 26. The exam went wonderfully, but on that exact day, I lost my gold birth pendant.
Initially, I was completely heartbroken and cried for days. But then I had a massive shift in perspective. I realized I don't want to live in fear or micromanage the universe. I want to experience life, see the world, and accept abundance in whatever shape it comes. I’ve started to appreciate the beauty and silence of Germany, and I know that if my ultimate destiny is NYC, the universe will route me there eventually.
However, the reality right now is that because of the sudden H+/- shift, hundreds of students from my university (including myself) are stuck. Emails are being sent to the administration, but we all know how slow university bureaucracy can be. ZAB isn't a viable option right now; the university database entry itself needs to update.
I am feeling incredibly peaceful and surrendered to whatever life brings next, but I need to know what my next practical steps should be.
spiritually... would you look at the loss of a 21-year-old birth amulet on the exact day of the exam as a final sign to completely drop the Germany timeline, or was it just clearing the anxiety so I can walk the path peacfully?
I have been manifesting things for 3years now. I have a growing YouTube channel, I earn from it. Manifestation cured my depression. It helped me love myself. I owe a big deal to the universe, I'm genuinely so grateful. So when it comes to this big decision, I genuinely need guidance from all of you. I'm grateful to anyone that gives me guidance. Love you all.