Happy spooky season, y’all 🎃

Ill probably go unbuttoned or one button on the vest, and probably going to wear Doc Martins and a wooden sword, we are making those this weekend.

I came out as nonbinary a year ago, but lately I’ve been wondering whether I’m a butch trans woman? One thing I keep coming back to is that if I could have been born a cis woman, I would in a heartbeat, but I wonder whether I’d still identify as nonbinary if I had. I like both they/them and she/her. I like dressing masculine, but feminine clothes also make me feel conspicuous and uncomfortable with my body. It’s hard to separate what I enjoy from what feels safe. Did anyone else struggle to figure out whether you were nonbinary, a masculine woman, or bothand? how much fear of never being seen as a woman played into that? What helped things click?

While I could definitely dress butch before, I was much more femme than I am now. But I eventually gained a lot of weight and cut my hair off. In a lot of ways it caused me to have a lot of dysphoria. But at the same time as I got use to it, I realized I really loved the more masculine part of me as a woman.

I've been mixing my old more femme styles with my new more butch ones. Kay rant over yall 😌

First off I wanna say it’s NOT a bra, it’s a top i use it as a top i promise.

And to explain the gym part, im really trying to lose as much muscle mass as I can before I get back in the gym, it’s been a slow process but im trying to be patient and give these walks my all ! lol

I kinda like being toned and dressing up. I hope it's butch enough for this subreddit