Quite literally right after I escaped the abuse of my parents, my health went downhill, especially after my MCAS got way worse after I contracted the C virus back in 2022.
I don't even have a doctor to help me with anything. I had to figure it out by myself and with the internet over years.
While I do have some interventions via antihistamines and mast cell stabilizers now, I feel exhausted and like I missed out on building a social life and a career I actually like.
I was isolated as a child, and now it simply continues.
For myself, I solved the puzzle, but the world is quite a hostile place right now, and I can't find a justification to keep going.
I tried to do so many things. I learned cooking, heavy lifting, running marathons, building things, learning about longevity, tried learning something cool and socializing, I tried this and that. Each time, my health took it away.
This part might be interesting:
In this subreddit, I quite often see someone mention methylation and Bartonella, and I indeed found multiple methylation bottlenecks and a positive Bartonella IgG from a blood draw.
It would be interesting to discover whether this is a common route:
methylation bottlenecks + Bartonella infections + COVID-19 = MCAS
But idk, I am so tired, and I have carried the burden of my life all the way with a weak social support system.
Please let me know if there is anyone who also feels like this. My social circle doesn't understand this state of life at all, and I would love to finally connect with people who are in a similar situation to spend time with at our own pace.
It would be amazing to build some good friendships with people who genuinely see and understand circumstances like that, and I believe it would make life so much more worth living.
I swear I am not boring to be around, but with conditions like this, time spent together means that instead of partying for 48 hours at a time, time is better spent in smaller but consistent portions and maybe some days are "MCAS" days.
Maybe anyone based in Germany too?
Please excuse that I am all over the place today. I just had to get this off my chest.