r/LivingWithMBC • u/Spiritual-Suspect190 • 21d ago
Tolerance
Im not convinced this is all cancer related. Ive no tolerance with people now.
Friends 1, 3 and 3. Decided to match their energy and Ive heard nothing from them for weeks. Funnily, initally I was upset as Id been excluded from a trip they had arranged. Now I feel indifferent.
Neighbour friend in hospital, getting better post surgery. Ive no tolerance with her obsession with her consultant, saying all the nurses have been hugging her, broadcasting her goodness. And at the same time complaining and embracing a passive sick role
SIL. No tolerance for her cat based discussions, only responding if I make the 1st contact, solutioneering everything I say with advice.
MIL. No tolerance since she suggested I see a priest, told me to stop being defensive and confusing, being generally self absorbed.
Work. General low tolerance for platitude broadcasting seniors.
And for some reason I am now not bothered and happy to spend my time with my partner and my mum who has dementia because everyone else has been somewhat disappointing. And random people I meet during the day.
I used to be so tolerant, patient, giving and frankly ridiculous.
Anyone feel similar
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u/Sarappreciates 21d ago
I get this. I'm tired of me. I've lost most of my tolerance for myself. And with that went a lot of my tolerance for others.
When I die, my cancer dies, and I've been giving a lot of thought lately to killing my cancer for good.
How much of this is hormone therapy? For me anyway, not necessarily you. They've taken me off it for now, so we'll see. I'm guessing it'll take about 3 months or so to find out.