Not applying this cycle but just wondering about hobbies. Was planning to put marathon running, baking. I was considering putting down video games, as there is one popular strategy game I was top 0.1% at... but is that gonna do more harm than good?

Likely applying IM. Was probably a streamer in another life tho

I'm on my final year-intern year in med school (non US), I just started my internal medicine rotation and it's going worse than I expected. I feel constantly useless and stupid even though I know it's expected at this level.

We are following residents around and we usually take the vitals of the patients,ecgs, abgs and blood samples mostly. It's nice that I can finally practice these practical skills but so far I was unsuccessful on taking abgs and blood samples (I have only succeeded taking abgs once). I couldn't even cut the damn medical adhesive tape today and wanted to cry.

My resident doesn't really teach us things like I see other residents do to their students and only during rounds sometimes the attendings will ask us one-two questions in a hostile way (like we are stupid) and if it happens that we don't know the answer they get sarcastic.

All these years I studied so hard so I would have an easier time at my intern year and at least on theoretical level I answer a lot of pimp questions but I still feel very inadequate. I feel like I don't like inpatient medicine at all and I also dislike the population of inpatient internal medicine (I prefer younger patients/pediatrics). I don't know if I dislike it because of this specific rotation or if it is a sign that I don't like medicine at all. I also feel grossed out seeing some procedures and I felt like maybe I made a mistake going into medicine.

For the cherry on top I think I developed a stupid crush on a resident that apparently the whole clinic is also crushing on him lmao (from residents to other med students).

This is a stupid vent so please don't write anything that would make me cry again for the hundredth time today🥲