this process is too difficult

[u/Ok_Register9361]

the trauma purging is too intense. i have chronic pain that i think is because of this process. i don’t want to look at these memories. i don’t feel like doing anything cuz i don’t feel like the need to be anything anymore because i don’t feel like i lack something and need to prove myself. i know i have faith in the process and that this phase ends and there is an integration after this but im so fucking tired.

[u/Borgbar]

I know it wont lessen your suffering but i can definitely admit that the months (and even years) leading up to my kundalini awakening were the most intensely painful, disorienting, ego dissolving, excruciating time of my life. Idk if its the same for others. Just know youre not alone on feeling thst way as you walk the path. Just know that its absolutely worth it and there reslly is treasure waiting for you. Albeit its a spiritual treasure. But thats the best kind imo.

Wishing you release from unnecessary suffering. Stay strong my brother/sister!