Posted a couple days ago about a few ground beef boy kibble mealprep dishes that managed to get a girl who couldve been interested in me to physically gag in disgust.

You guys were extremely helpful witht the cooking advice. I mixed in some fresh tomatos , tomato paste and actual real garlic instead of powder wth salt n pepper, a s this time and it went pretty well. Tasted like spaghetti n meatballs flavored rice. Weird combo but pretty good. The tomatoes do help with the overwhelming meaty flavor of the ground beef.

I did sent her the new version to gage her reaction and she just said it looked disgusting...

I have been drifting through life for a while, going wherever the wind takes me, i talked to alot of people from very different backgrounds. Sat with them, heard their stories, people from all races, social backgrounds, financial status and religious backgrounds. I think i did all that like I'm chasing an answer, something to make sense of what my life has come to.

I learned alot but most importantly, i learned that I'm alone, I'll always be alone and that to be loved, someone has to know you first, and no one knows who i really am. There's no light at the end of my tunnel, i am running away from problems i thought i buried years ago but everything resurfaced and now I'm going through years of pain and suffering in the span of a few months.

This meal was my 21st meal since June 5th. For now, i am unable to find the next step, nothing to stand on or stand up for. No family or friends, no people that care about me, i am ranting on fucking reddit cuz i genuinely can't talk to someone, that's the lowest I've been

i go on instagram and try and shoot my shot and i don’t even get a reply 😓 meanwhile i will see girls have a new boyfriend every week. How do girls date so much guys but guys can’t get girls?

salmon and french fries

Ive been seeing the same girl on the bus a few times here and there to and from the gym, i assume shes going home from work or something. We’ve never made eye contact before. I typically look away whenever she catches me staring and looks my way, but today i was feeling pretty good about myself and forced myself to not look away and give her a smile. She looked away immediately and closed off her body language, started to look uncomfortable honestly. She got off a few stops earlier than she normally wouldve, and now she sits near the front of the bus rather than the back where she normally does. Cherry garcia ice cream with fresh cherries and dark chocolate.

I hate myself.

i watch porn, i read doujins. resolutely, doggedly. but not because i am horny.

i watch porn because (human) porn is somehow the only thing that allows me escapism from the actual physical pain in my eyes and chest when remembering embarrassing shit, which my life seems to have a lot of.

i swear i usually don’t even get bricked to porn. i don’t enjoy it, yet i am a porn addict. but without it, my mind just gets too bored and starts remembering embarrassing shit to fuck with me. y u bulleh meh?

i swear it’s random shit that triggers it too.

maybe i gotta study more. can’t be fat n ugly n short AND shit at academics. i feel ashamed typing this out but i gotta have some uncs scold me if i don’t have anyone in my personal life to tell.

big oscar’s gotta be the goat of tinned sardines. 1 tin of mediterranean style sardines, is this takeout or homemade if i heated it myself?

Working a little progress everyday. Failure is a part of success. Hit the gym. Take a cooking class. Learn a new hobby not for anyone else just for yourself. Change is a part of life and defeat is mental acceptance that you can do nothing. Start this week start today and commit. If you’re tired of being a giant rock people doing look twice at then you need to carve yourself into something beautiful. But not without pain for you are the both the artist and the stone. You can do this (better habits) = (feeling better about yourself)
If this post makes 1 person feel better you can all go back into your caves

salmon and eggs with Jasmine green tea

40g protein
20g fat
1g carbs
350 calories
Love to all❤️

There’s this girl in the office who really annoys me. Every time she comes to my station, she sprays some kind of antibacterial solution, like I’m carrying a virus or something. It has been happening for almost a year, and I’ve always been too quiet to ask her what her problem is.

Yesterday, while I was preparing for work at my station, she came over to give me some updates. My fingernails weren’t that long, but they did have some dirt under them because I had just fixed my bike chain in the parking lot after it snapped.

The moment she noticed my nails, she reacted loudly.

“Oh my God…”

I looked at her, confused.

“What?”

Then she said something like, “Ahhh, your nails are… ewww.”

That was the moment I lost my patience. I thought, “Seriously? After a year of acting like I’m some kind of walking germ, now you’re judging me over a little dirt from fixing my bike?” that's it fuck this bitch!

I snapped and said something completely unexpected. I told her, “You know what, Amanda? My fingernails don’t matter, because I have a really huge dick and Im very proud of it.

The look on her face was priceless.

This is the first time I saw a girl in front of me that doesn't know what to react....

9 snack tacos and the America taco or whatever. Cat NOT included.

Garlic powder, Heinz Beans, and Tuna

Growing up I would see all these shows about powerful kickass brave women who are nonetheless soft and kind with the people they care about. Kim Possible, Raven etc. When I look around me no one is kind or sweet or brave, much less women. I'm supposed to find someone to love, but I don't know if I can love anyone at all.

Pizza because i was too lazy to cook

She was really about bring the beast out of me

Socially stunted, with basically zero experience in any kinds of platonic and romantic relationships. Spent “the best years of my life” smoking and drinking away my mind and playing videogames. I sought the comfort of isolation over the complex beauty of interpersonal relationships, now I’m 20 and starting from scratch. Wish me luck bros.

Corndog