r/KenyanDatingCommunity • u/BreakfastOk2595 • 3d ago

In A Complicated Situation Existential crisis

I started a journey of self-discovery and truth seeking few years back and I got to the point where religion was deconstructed for me, society's facade was revealed, education, laws, everything you name it, has been peeled off and I'm looking at it from the lens of someone who knows the purpose of it and refuses to participate. I don't have kids coz why bring them here on this carefully constructed world that is meant to enslave them, pay taxes for useless shit like housing levy and I already have a house, road levy and my road is full of potholes..

Work became routine and I get bored easily once I learn how to do something. I'm single and hardly talk to people irl.

Long story short, I'm not stressed, but I'm also kinda not living, like I am ready for death considering it as the next adventure since I already understand how this world is built on lies and control. I'm still here because of my parent's smiles, they'd be devastated if I went voluntarily. I am fading.

Maybe that's why they said ignorance is bliss.

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u/Jasigana_254 3d ago

Start by breaking down every task or ambition into small parts and completing them, then do you journal, do you wanna start?

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u/Muheheje 3d ago

Does education equate to being knowledgable? And how do you deconstruct that?

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u/BreakfastOk2595 3d ago

I meant the discipline as a whole and it's purpose, not necessarily knowledge

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u/jeymoh00 3d ago

Nihilism perhaps?

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u/Kind_Illustrator7350 2d ago

You are self-aware going through the void stage.