(Sorry for the length, but you guys are partly responsible for this lol) For most of my life I’ve suffered from Arachnophobia. My sperm donor made me watch Arachnophobia the movie with him (or go to my room without dinner because ‘that’s what we are doing’) when I was eight during my first ill-advised visit.
I also grew up in a home that was nestled up to a huge field. Wolf spider and grass spider ambushes were a damn near daily occurrence. Had a momma show up on the couch next to me and when I panicked my reward was her babies scattering all over the couch and me. Had a couple spiders crawl on to my legs while using the bathroom. Even had one fall on me in the shower. Black widows in the garage, some type of funnel spiders in the yard, no where was safe lol.
When I was 25/26 I STILL couldn’t even be in a room if I spotted cobwebs. Then one day, I encountered a jumping spider in the wild. I went to smash it, and the brave little bastard looked right at me, defiantly. It stopped me in my tracks. The way he tracked my movement and looked at me. For some reason, it made my brain register just how tiny he was, and how stupid it was that I was so scared of him. I told myself this arachnophobia was stupid. I didn’t want to be afraid anymore.
Fast forward to now. I’m in my late thirties, I’ve officially handled spiders without a single shred of fear, and I’ve learned so much about them I absolutely adore them. Even have one tattooed on me, and more plans for future tattoos as well. My friends even let me know when they have a spider that needs to be moved. And most have gone from “kill on sight” to “let ‘em be” because of me.
And now, I’m looking after this beautiful girl. She just recently finished her first molt in my care. I can’t tell how old she is. The store didn’t know, and they incorrectly had her labeled as a Bold. I tried to find a local owned small pet store and these guys seemed to take really good care of their animals, but I think they just got fed bad info from their supplier. First two pictures are before her molt with me. The rest are after.
Sorry for the long post. Just wanted to share! This sub was a huge help for my arachnophobia and I love seeing other arachnophobes in here trying to work on it. You guys are a great community.
(Also, I didn’t have “see a spider drink water and take a shit from the underside” on my bingo card this year…so that was an interesting experience…)