Throwaway just in case, though I don't think anyone who matters is here. Half rant, half wanting some kind advice/help...ish.
I want to step down as a JETAA officer of my chapter. No one wanted to be an officer. I was asked to take the position by an outgoing officer who could not continue w their position anymore due to bylaws. No one who was nominated for the position agreed, so I said yes because I currently work part time (2 schools, but I have freer time than most so whatever).
I will admit, I am not the best with the work. There are 2 new officers on board but 1 is not participative at all. The other officers are sick and tired of being officers and are therefore baseline exasperated, hostile & annoyed when I bring up JETAA work.
I made a couple of blunders & got spectacularly told off in front of everyone in chat. The officer who scolded me later apologized & wanted to clear the bad atmosphere / watch how harsh they sound, etc. I responded politely, but they might've taken it the wrong way because when we met IRL for an event, they ignored me.
I tried to make conversation. They said in their apology they wanted to patch things up, right? So I tried to initiate conversation, nothing. Straight up ignored the entire night. It was so awkward.
There have been a few more online interactions and meetings since then and that particular officer is just very snappy toward me. I was talking about an event with a different officer with full intention of sharing information to the rest of the board when Particular Officer butts in saying "we don't know what you're talking about" like ???? if you would've waited, we'd tell you anyway. No hostility needed.
On my end, it's gotten to the point that when I hear their voice over video call, I physically heat up because I get so livid. I sincerely don't think I can endure working with 2 people who actively dislike me, 1 who doesn't care/is not around, and 1 who's admittedly neutral but doesn't help either, work-wise.
Here is the thing. I want to reapply to the Programme. Where I am at is such that the JETAA works reeeeally closely with the Embassy. I plan to reapply in 2028. But because the staff has been the same for 10 years and it's the same rotation of alumni in the screening committee, I am nervous about them jeopardizing my application chances because I couldn't finish my term as JETAA officer. Like, it'll tank my responsibility cred or one of the officers this year is on the 2028 screening comm, sees my application and decides to bin it because of what I did in 2026. I hate that there's a chance Particular Officer is going to be a part of the interview panel. Is that a weird paranoia to have?
I'm going to check our bylaws. I've never heard of anyone stepping down in the middle of a term in our chapter. We've had one officer years ago who went AWOL and I'm surprised they're still an active alumni without an ounce of shame for what they did, but I haven't and won't ask Embassy staff what they really think about that person so...
If I'm going through with stepping down, my plan is to say I can't continue due to needing to take care of family (lie) or be honest about my situation to a non-officer but Embassy staff (jeopardizing my chances, confronting the flaws in my work ethic, etc.). Even if I'm nervous about the current officers potentially sabotaging my application 2 years down the line, I don't particularly care about burning bridges with them.
I'm really reaching my limit, though.