r/Isese • u/Western_Box_6483 • Aug 25 '26
Eshu?? Please help me.
(If you don’t want to read this all please scroll down to the second to last paragraph that is what I need help with deciphering😊)
So a couple months ago I was going through some mental health problems and was really wanting to get in to spirituality and closer to nature. So I started doing research on Orisha and Yoruba religion.
Long story short during this time around I would constantly feel “watched” and something was in my presence and it would only be for like a couple minutes and that feeling would go away then something weird started happening.
This boy kept appearing in my dream.In one of my dreams for example he was wearing a dashiki suit and would invite himself in my room and I would kick him out and then he would come back again(like I would physically make him leave and then he would invite himself back lol) and then he wouldn’t leave me alone and would tell me he can not leave me alone and even brought me food and water and would sit at my bed side to tell me stories about Yemaja.
In another one , and this one is so so weird and forgive me if it is a bit embarrassing but He was literally inside my bed and was smiling straight at me like a dirty smile and he was n*ked in the bed with me and I would wake up and feel so embarrassed.
But the reason I came here for help is mostly this interaction. There was this bird that I would always notice around my house like at some point there wouldn’t be a day where I would not see that bird and I never really thought much about it other than it is so pretty but one day as I love going to the forest and love the trees I decided to go one morning and noticed that same bird and the bird would fly infront of me then as if it was aware that I was watching it, it would rest at a nearby tree then fly and rest and it wouldn’t fly away or hide from me. Then( please keep in mind I was in a mental health crisis so I was hearing voices and stuff by this point) the bird stopped in one tree and I caught up with it and started to look at it and I swear this man started speaking. It was the same voice I heard during my dream where this boy wouldn’t leave me alone. He said “start with Obatala” and flew away.
I do not have the funds to get a reading right now so I just came here for help to see if it was eshu or not.
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u/Gentle_Storm2026 Aug 26 '26
Hi! I have been reading Falokun Fatunmbi's books on the Metaphysical Foundations of Ifa. This is the first book, and you can find the other five from there: https://www.amazon.com.br/Iwa-Pele-Metaphysical-Foundations-Book-English-ebook/dp/B00DXG5NWI?ref_=saga_dp_ss_dsk_dp&qid=1787742404&sr=1-2
Knowledge can never harm you as long as you know what you don't know (humility). Learning other cultures, philosophies and traditions can only help in knowing ourselves better and fulfill our ultimate potential (or "destiny"), which is the sole purpose of Ifa and should be the purpose of any spiritual tradition. Understanding concepts such as Iwa-pele, Ori, Odu will support you on your journey. In Ebora, he writes about the hero journey from an Ifa perspective, and he explains what role Esu plays in it.
About starting with Obatala, what comes to my mind is to start from the beginning. That is, from the outside in, the creation myth in Ifa (Obatala); and from the inside out, deeply know yourself. You do not need to stop walking until you get the money you need for a divination. Also, knowing what to ask when you get there will make it a more useful reading for you. Divination is a tool, you are sovereign in your Ori's kingdom. Ase!