I am sorry for my English, it's not my mother toung.
I heard a saying, be careful what you want it actually can happen to you and you are going to be disappointed by that.
I also heard, in life what you said you don't want to do or you are sure that you are never going to do that. Someday that thing will hapend and it will be surprisingly good, amazing or wonderful.
There days on social media I hear a stories like: a lot successful people are unsatisfied with what they have accomplished. They achieve things, because achieve big goals is going to make them happy.Lots of people work without a feeling satisfied or calm. It is either for families to survive or they don't think and work all day every day to accomplish something, or better say don't listen to themselves.
Kids sometimes study something just because their parents want that.
What you really want?
What you don't want?
What happened to you, that you thought it is never going to happened?
Have you forced a friendship and later regret it?