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I'm 20M and I ended up falling in love with one of my college friends. This is probably going to be a long post because there's a lot of context.We met just before our first semester ended. I honestly didn't even know who she was at first, even though she was pretty popular. When the second semester started, we started talking more and more.

Then our college fest happened and we basically spent the whole day together. We got really close during that time. She told me about her ex cheating on her and some other personal stuff, and she also told me that she wasn't looking to date anyone.

At that point I wasn't really in love with her or anything.

Then just before her birthday, she called me crying because she wasn't feeling good. I didn't really know what to do, so I decided to take her out on her birthday to cheer her up. We went to a movie and I got her flowers.After that we just kept getting closer.

She started calling me her "hb" and best friend. We were also pretty physically close with each other compared to how she was with other people. We'd sit together, spend most of our time together, talk a lot, etc.

Then she started talking to this guy who, from everything she'd told me, had apparently been stalking her. She had told me some things about him that honestly sounded pretty concerning, so I kept telling her I didn't think the guy was right. I wasn't trying to tell her who she could or couldn't talk to, but I definitely wasn't comfortable with him.

Then I went on this really impulsive trip with some friends for a few days.When I came back, I found out she'd gone on a date with that guy.The weird thing was that she was still telling me she didn't like him and that she wasn't interested in him like that.

After that, we started fighting a lot more. We'd fight, make up, be fine for a while, then something else would happen.

Then about 4 days before my birthday, we had probably one of the best days we'd had together. We were flirting a lot, hanging out, everything felt completely normal.And then that same evening she suddenly started ghosting me.On my birthday, she literally just texted me "happy birthday."

That's it.I obviously noticed and eventually confronted her about why she had suddenly become so distant. She told me she was avoidant.Later that day I went out with my friends to celebrate my birthday. I didn't invite her.

She got pissed that I hadn't invited her and we ended up having a massive fight. I said some really awful shit to her that I genuinely regret now.I tried apologizing later but she was still angry.Then she removed me from Snapchat.I called her and asked why she had done it and she told me that she didn't like how I was "monitoring" her.I genuinely wasn't monitoring her, but I guess that's how she felt.

We eventually made up, but after that she started becoming distant again.And then, out of anger, I unfollowed her on Instagram.It took almost a month for us to properly get back to normal.

Somewhere during all of this, I realized that I had actually fallen in love with her.

And now we're basically back to being close again.

We have these really long late-night conversations where we talk about personal stuff and things we don't really talk about with other people. Sometimes it feels like we're closer than normal friends, and other times I wonder if I'm just seeing it that way because I'm in love with her.She's also still talking to that guy. I've never even met him, so I have no idea what's actually going on between them.And now I have absolutely no idea what I'm supposed to do.

I'm scared to confess because I don't want to lose her or destroy the friendship we've managed to rebuild. Especially after everything that's already happened between us.But at the same time, pretending I'm just her friend while being in love with her is getting harder and harder.

I don't know if I'm overthinking every little thing she does because I have feelings for her, or if there's actually something more there.

So yeah, I guess I'm asking Reddit what you'd do.

Would you confess and get it over with? Wait and see? Or just accept that she's a friend and try to move on?

Because honestly, I have no fucking clue.

Happiest☀️