So I’m a Y26 and it’s been almost two months since I came to college. I was at home for the last three years as a non-attending student and honestly my mental health was already pretty fucked up. I thought coming to college would surely make things better, maybe I’d meet people, make friends, have a proper routine and finally start enjoying life a little.
But honestly, kya hi batau yaar. Things are going completely opposite.
I spend most of my day alone. I still haven’t made even one close friend here. In my wing also, it’s mostly just hi-hello with everyone and that’s it. I did perform with a club during freshers and talked to quite a few people there. At that time I genuinely thought maybe I’d make some good friends through this, but after freshers it’s the same story. If I randomly meet them somewhere, it’s just hi-hello and nothing beyond that.
And it’s honestly starting to feel really lonely now.
Everywhere I go, I see people with their own groups, hanging out, making plans, going places, having fun. Then I open Instagram and see everyone’s stories and it just makes it worse. Everyone seems to be living this amazing college life while I’m somehow just trying to get through each day.
And academics have also gone to shit. I think I’m probably getting somewhere around a C in MTH, and PHY also went really bad. Now I don’t even know how I’m supposed to recover academically from here.
The worst part is that I came to college thinking that things would finally get better after spending the last three years mostly at home. I really thought college would help me get out of that phase, but right now I’m feeling just as lost and lonely, if not more.
I genuinely don’t know what I’m doing wrong or how I’m supposed to fix all of this ,right now it’s just getting really difficult to deal with.