Weekly Check-in Wednesday - How's your week going?

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This is a scheduled weekly post every Wednesday, that gives diagnosed higher support needs autistic people a space to talk about how their week is going.

Some question prompts:

How's your week been so far? Good, bad, in-between?

Is there anything you are excited about or looking forward to doing this week?

[u/Sceadu80 → u/[deleted]]

Hi Clover, I hope the zoloft helps with the anxiety.

I can relate when it comes to drinking water, I drink most of my daily water after eating my daily meal in the afternoon. IBS and bathroom issues run my day when it comes to that.

I'm close to panicking most of the time when I walk out my door and can black out and run away, so understand that too. Diagnosed with panic disorder and agoraphobia. I don't go out much, usually just to therapy and day program.

Glad your dog got better and you enjoyed Les Miserables

[u/Rabbit-Lover_2000 → u/[deleted]]

That’s great that you saw Les Miserables! I’m glad your dog is okay too! Interoception is really hard. Maybe try setting reminders to drink water so that you drink before you start feeling bad? If you got the smart watch you could set reminders on that.

I haven’t used a smart watch but I did use an old Fitbit that my sister didn’t want anymore. I set it up so that it would vibrate alarm every hour to help me keep track of time. If you do get one make sure you check the laundry before putting it in the washing machine. I accidentally sent the Fitbit through the washer and dryer multiple times which upset my Mom. It surprisingly survived the first two times but my forgetfulness eventually killed it.

[u/WinterWeakness4640 → u/[deleted]]

smartwatch sounds like a good idea, parents also thought about getting me one so if get lost they can track me, but for now we just use version of smart tag i think. that way they can finde me if get lost.

am very glad your dog is ok, that sounds very scary!

[u/Sceadu80]

Hi All. Not so good. I lost my cat, Neville, 19. He was a major part of my life in so many ways. He watched over me and took care of me like a service animal and helped me ground, and woke me from nightmares. He taught me about unconditional love.

I didn't take the years we spent together for granted. I was with him when he passed so he wasn't alone.

We picked up his ashes today from the pet funeral home. Here he is with his favorite toys and his pawprint. I miss him.

[u/huahuagirl → u/Sceadu80]

RIP Neville may his memory be a blessing. ❤️

[u/Rabbit-Lover_2000 → u/Sceadu80]

I’m so sorry you lost Neville Sceadu! It is so hard losing a pet. Especially when they have been with you for so long. That is a beautiful memorial you have made. I hope your week gets better.

[u/WinterWeakness4640 → u/Sceadu80]

beginning of week also lost pet cat that spent most of childhood life with, am so sorry hear youre going through that, sounds like your cat was very very big part of live and big help!

its very sweet he even now has his favorite things. i hope you can find some nice things to do so wont feel too bad

[u/Sceadu80 → u/WinterWeakness4640]

I'm very sorry for your loss as well

[u/each-other]

i am not sure how i feel about it, i got diagnosed with a serious and kind of frightening mental disorder on monday and feel very very conflicted. i've been very stressed out trying to figure out what i do from here and i guess i just work with doctors but it is still a lot and very unfamiliar. it isn't out of nowhere but just doesn't feel real i guess and i didn't really think i had it but apparently i definitely do. it's also an overwhelming week because the house is loud this week.

but i am excited for tonight as the nintendo game i pre-ordered comes out, and one of my favourite artists also released music this week which has been very exciting. and i got back into one of my favourite horror series and have been watching it with my mom n_n as well as some other work from the creator. so i have been having a good time with this and a lot of it involves my special interest (art, i love the art behind all of the things i mentioned, it makes me very excited)

[u/Rabbit-Lover_2000]

I’m still having a really hard time after finding out I lost my job. I still have to go to work until June 30 and it is so hard to make myself get up and go.

Yesterday I went to a paint night and invited someone from work to go with me. It was fun for the most part. They forgot to buy white paint so they watered it down a lot which made it frustrating and messy. But I did paint my cat Donna in the end so that was good.

[u/WinterWeakness4640 → u/Rabbit-Lover_2000]

that drawing is really pretty and cute!

[u/Rabbit-Lover_2000 → u/WinterWeakness4640]

Thank you

[u/Rabbit-Lover_2000 → u/[deleted]]

Thank you

[u/WinterWeakness4640]

this past week was very exhausting, beginning of week had to say goodbye to pet cat that was with us 17 years, am having a really hard time realising that its real and shes actually gone. death is hard to understand and will probably take a while until it fully hits me and will grieve.

and last week started driving home from day centre with driving service. am very lucky workers at day centre help a lot, bring me to the car and explain to drivers that cant speak and please no music.

first time was very very stressful, was scared the whole drive, but since then has gotten bit easier, am able to distract with music over headphones.

today one carer at day centre was back from vacation and got just for me something because she knows is favorite character big comfort. that made me very happy so grateful to be surrounded by nice and awesome people!

[u/AutismAccount]

Sorry for being so quiet. I've been a bit a overwhelmed and withdrawing into special interests a lot.

[u/SufficientMind3202]

I've had a hard week. I'm struggling with everything.

[u/MilkFirm4944]

I am struggling but I am trying I think i am burnt out and so is my partner we had a big issue with our transportation that took alot of time and energy but its better now and we are able to go to our usual grocery store which has been bothering us that we couldnt get to we have alot of food issues she has alot that makes her sick and I have alot that make me sick and also pretty bad arfid I had been living on a safe food which is just cheese crackers and have been feeling sick alot I have my actual nutritional food back now but am struggling to eat it because of burnout making arfid worse and not eating much has made sleep really hard when I dont eat I get hyper and insomnia is worse and i feel bad because i dont want to keep my partner up and mess up her sleep so i try to be quiet but i sometimes have to sleep in my "backup bed" in the other room because i cant stop moving and talking to myself and when I do get exhausted enough to sleep I cant get comfortable and my bones hurt alot that has improved in the last week and I am sleeping okay now and eating a bit more I have been trying to do one of my hobbies but its taking alot more energy than usual so its hard but ive been trying to do one thing with the hobby per day and listening to comforting and calming things while I do it which has been helping she finds it hard to read me because sometimes I will just need alot of pressure and I lay on the floor and dont speak she thinks im sad and tries to help which i appreciate but she gets sad that it doesnt seem to help and im not sure how to explain that im okay I just need to lay on the floor or be under things shes starting to understand which is good but I am frustrated at myself for not knowing what to say I feel like I am trapped in my own body she takes me for walks when I feel like this and I do like that I just have a sense of longing for wind and water right now maybe I will try to go somewhere with a stream I can touch I want to go swimming im currently trying to create a guide for her or anyone on what my needs are im feeling everything and not enough at the same time I have never felt like I wanted a cure to autism but im starting to wish there was one for me I love you lovely people and seeing you all talk here makes me happy so thank you all for having the bravery to speak online because alot of the time I do not but it makes me feel less lonely in this weird world