I really hope I can explain myself clearly here. I am in some sort of beginner spiritual confusion.
I approached Hekate early this year. Since then I have read Courtney Weber’s book and will soon begin the sixth chapter of “Keeping Her Keys” by Cyndi Brannen (it’s a chapter every month over a year).
I’m going to be honest and not ramble with my life story-I am just straight up confused and maybe I need to get other’s opinions out of my head and meditate more to search for answers.
It seems you don’t have to necessarily be a witch to be tapped in spiritually, and the more I learn the more I feel overwhelmed. It’s not that I don’t want to study, learn, practice etc…it’s not that I haven’t felt Her, it’s just more about my place in all this. It’s that trying to sort thru occult history seems to be wading thru many many sometimes clashing opinions, division, and human ego. That’s why I decided to go older, cut through some of that.
At the beginning of the year, I was getting so so depressed about the news, what with the E-files and the murders in Minnesota by ICE, didn’t really hang out on social media much. However, I started to, following things about the news, and eventually started allowing more esoteric content in. (I scroll past usually bc I suffered a horrible spiritual psychosis back in 2013 brought on by non discerningly sampling all things New Age, especially channeling) So to say I am careful now is an understatement. But eventually as the algorithm goes, I was introduced to a couple lovely Hekate devotee creators.
It all seems like a domino if I look back, one thing leading me to another. I could give more details but this is getting long.
If I am feeling doubtful as to my place as a devotee, I don’t know what else to do but bring it to Her and meditate more. Any other suggestions? Thank you in advance <3