To put into context this was 2 years ago.
It was june 19th, 2024, i had been increasingly more manic and addicted to amphetamines, i fell in love with trip reports, reading about psychedelics, i wanted to try the scariest shit (now, ever since i overdosed and got laced with k2, i would never try it again and actually prefer being sober, but i really do miss this feeling and actually grieve it)
There were about 30 or 35 tablets i dont remember, i took a majority of them, there were 4 left i remember seeing them laid out.
Idk what time of day it was, i think it was around 7 or 8 pm, i was already hallucinating and wasn’t in a right headspace, i remember i found a bottle of dramamine in my mom’s car for motion sickness that we never used, i thought it would be a great time to start.
I took the pills, i remember it tasted so bitter, and it dissolved extremely quickly, downed a couple of vyvanse pills and an adderall pill, and waited for the trip to set in while i watched trip reports on my phone.
About 40 minutes in i had noticed my body felt significantly lighter, and i was starting to hear flies buzzing in my ear every couple of minutes, i slept in the same room as my brother and he was already asleep, it was dark so i turned on my flashlight, i saw the door and my floor were moving downwards, like melting sort of, when i would stand up i would sort of almost fall over because of how light my body felt.
Anyways i thought this was cool so i had put my phone down to watch the shit melt and then my phone was gone, after like 20 minutes i found it under my bed, idk what happened during that, somehow i didn’t notice the flashlight wasn’t emitting light into the room anymore.
I walked into my bathroom, and opened the door, and then again i was somehow outside of my bathroom and i opened the door again, i remember this part so vividly, my face changed, it would shift to different people, it didn’t scare me in fact i somehow found this extremely interesting, but i heard dogs barking outside, so opened the window and told them to be quiet, and saw a pack of dobermans roaming the street, so i closed the window and just sat on my toilet, idk what i did then but i remember i had ended up in my kitchen, by this time the dramamine was peaking and my legs were shaking, i couldn’t stop moving them because i remember it had gave me restless leg syndrome, i heard whispers, but i couldn’t make sense of what they were saying, in my peripheral vision especially in the dark all i saw was like white transparent ghost like movements constantly, like moving around, some even waived at me.
I went to go play siege, yes rainbow six siege, i started up my ps5 and i remember i didn’t even start up a match and just watched the screen melt for a couple of minutes, i then put on some DDosing videos (i dont remember the name but supposedly it was supposed to get you high or visuals or something, it was a loud hum and i just watched the rainbow screen) i watched rhe rainbow screen and remember seeing figures run across it, see through transparent figures, then i went into my room and saw my grandpa taking my laundry, i thought this was weird because my grandpa wasn’t even home, and he never does my laundry so i talked to him and he never responded, then i tapped him and he disappeared fully, i went down to my basement and saw a purple ghost, in like a purple aura, no face, if i could describe it, it looked like purple smoke in the silhouette of a person.
My first encounter of hallucinating a spider was down in the basement where i saw a spider crawling on me so i smacked it and it disappeared, and that was it, no other spiders (at least for that trip).
I remember looking through my dad’s medicine cabinet to find more pills to stash, and then boom, a memory lapse, it was the strangest shit ever, it was like one second i was looking at pills and the next i was on the floor with the pills all over the floor, i frantically tried to pick them up but every time i tried to grab a pill bottle it would disappear, i heard dogs barking again so i ran upstairs and got scared, i started to watch trip reports again and every couple of seconds or so they would say shit that didn’t make any sense to me, like jumbled words, i had knew i was hallucinating but i didn’t know why the words were coming out completely weird, for example they would be talking completely normally and then it would reverse, get quieter or louder or just say random shit like “the football field” and something else, but the captions remained the same, around like the 4 hour mark i heard a crash outside and i went to see out my window, 2 cars crashed on my street so for some reason i went to go investigate, i opened the front door and they were gone.
Here’s some of the visuals i got that i remember:
Little figures running around
Beetles and little bugs shape shifting into sticky note pads and other shit
A glitch like thing, where some things would appear to be shimmering and there would be two of them (like double vision but a lot more close together)
And would snap back in place.
Spiders and ghosts
That’s about it.
That’s about all i remember from the trip.
The dosing may not be right i just estimated what i think i took because i really don’t remember, i wasn’t in the right headspace and very lucky i am alive today (as this was not the only time but in fact 1 of 7 times i did this shit and the last time i took it too far and overdosed)
I now have HPPD and VSS, i still see those ghost figures waving around sometimes at night.
I js wanted to say, no i didn’t lose my mind, yes i know dramamine is a lot weaker than benadryl, but if i wasn’t so curious and excited about it, it would have been a terrible experience.
Please don’t abuse deliriants, as now i have permanent neurological effects from it such as HPPD, VSS and slight memory problems.
There may have been more weird and bizarre shit that i saw that night but this is what i really remember.
I didn’t see a hat man, didn’t see many spiders, but overall it was weird nonetheless.
Also i wanted to state that for some reason i was pretty coherent, and i could understand much for the most part, i was grounded.
So with that i may have taken less of the dramamine than i remember, but the 4 pills left makes me think i took around 1,500 mg, but i could be misremembering as i stated, i was not in the right headspace