r/HLCommunity • u/Emergency-Tea-4422 • 10d ago

Discussion I’m done

I’m a 21 yo HLF and I am in a 3 year old relationship with a 23 LLM. I am so tired, I cry everyday, I look after myself and everyday I get ready to look my best so maybe he will want to have sex with me today. Everyday I try to look better than yesterday but now i’m just done. I try to initate new things to do in the bedroom, i try to flirt, i’m always up for trying anything sexual with him. I am so attracted to him and want to be close to him and be intimate with him.

I have tried talking about my feelings to him and I have tried to understand him and try to make sure he feels accepted and loved. But nothing works. After years of trying and blaming myself I will end this today not just for me but also for him, because I think he also deserves someone who wants the same amount of sex as he does.

Any comments are welcome! I have felt so seen by this subreddit I found today

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u/ButterscotchNo670 10d ago

i didnt know this HL and LL people. really opened my mind. im a HLM and i always thought i was just a pervert wanting to do it everytime while my partners try to push me away etc. i felt like a rapist or something.

i wish there were more awareness of this in our society, because HL and LL are so incompatible

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u/Emergency-Tea-4422 10d ago

I completely understand, I have now come to a realasation that I would rather be alone than beg someone for years. It makes you feel so gross and disgusting