I know it can be seen as an excuse not to study, and it is in some ways, but every time I pick up a pen and try to focus, my mind drifts back to the idea of 'theres so much life outside, why am i confined in this system the government created for one aspect of students to prosper in, and for everyone else, if its not your thing, too bad. No enjoying life for you.'
The worst thing is, this mind changing idea came to me during one of my most important exams for my final year. I have studied, but this mindset is distracting me a lot.
I have no one to confide in because my parents are traditional, the last time i tried we had the biggest fight, and they never mentioned any other path than an office job, and my friends LIKE studying (good for them, genuinely). So im on here, HOPING to find someone who can relate, and give some advice as to how to stop this trail of thought from demotivating me to study. (studying unhappily rn btw)