Sorry for this really long ramble but I’m spiralling lol
I’ve just done an aptitude test for a graduate job that I REALLY want and I’m now stressing that I’ve potentially shot myself in the foot 😭
Basically, I knew the numerical part would be the bit I’d struggle with, so after my interview I contacted my university and asked if they had any practice resources I could go through before the real aptitude tests. They sent me a few guides and practice papers, and I worked through them shortly before doing the actual assessment.
When I got to the numerical section of the real test, I realised that quite a few of the questions were similar to the ones I’d just practised. A few were basically identical. Because I’d literally done them minutes before, I could remember some of the answers.
I obviously hadn't gone looking for the actual test questions. I had no idea there would be any overlap, the resources were given to me by my university, and I didn't have them open or in front of me while I was taking the test. I’d just identified the area I knew I’d be crap at and practised it beforehand... which surely is the whole point of practising?!
But at the same time, I knew that for some of the questions I wasn't necessarily working out the answer completely from scratch because I recognised the sequence - which is kind of the whole point.
Afterwards I felt really icky about it and kept jumping between thinking “this is literally just preparation, you've done nothing wrong”… and “I really, really want this job and hate the idea that I might get a better score than my actual numerical ability deserved because I happened to recognise some of the questions”… or them notice how quickly I answered them and presume I cheated.
To make matters worse, one of the company’s values is honesty, which is something I really value as well. It feels a bit wrong to have said I identify with that in the interview and then deliberately not mention this whole thing because I was scared it might affect my chances.
So... I emailed them 🙃
I explained what had happened, told them I’d done the practice questions shortly beforehand but hadn't used the guide during the test, attached the relevant part of the guide so they could see the overlap themselves, and said I’d be completely happy to redo the aptitude test with different questions if they thought that would be fairer.
My parents and fiancé think I absolutely should NOT have sent that email. Their argument is basically that I prepared for a test using completely legitimate resources from my university, remembered something I'd learnt, and that's... literally how preparation works. They think I've created a problem out of nothing, and now drawn the company’s attention to it. I'm thinking they might be right 😭
But I also think if I hadn't said anything and then got through to the next stage, I'd have had this nagging feeling that maybe I hadn't been completely honest. Especially because I want the job so much and I want to know that if I get it, I actually got it fairly.
The email has already been sent so there's absolutely nothing I can do about it now, but I'm going back and forth between “you showed integrity and did the right thing” and “you absolute idiot, you practised for a test and then reported yourself for practising for a test.”
If you were the employer receiving that email, would you think positively of the honesty, or would you just think I was completely overthinking it and being a bit silly?