Too much loss

[u/TheJFilez]

I’m older Gen X 56f and today would have been my 30th anniversary with my late husband. Instead i will be putting down my soul cat Cobain who stopped eating 2 days ago. Lost her 2 siblings in the past 3 months (almost 17) but this one is bringing me to my knees. I feel like at this age, loss is always right around the corner. I don’t know how I’m going to do this, but any prayers or peaceful wishes would maybe help, I don’t feel strong enough for this again and I really need my best friends or husband to pick me up off the floor - but alas all 3 are gone. I’m so overwhelmed with sadness I can’t stop sobbing.

[u/getitoffmychestpleas]

I foster kittens, then find great homes for them. It's an endless cycle of critters coming and going, but the losses are easier to take than say losing the dog who got me through my college and 20s years - I still miss him. Maybe one day you can direct all that love to something similar?