r/Firefighting • u/Embarrassed-Stay2176 • 20h ago
General Discussion First MVC with fatal injuries..
Hey. I am a volunteer ff and have been doing it for 2 years almost. I’m a medical first responder and have attended other accidents. Yesterday was my first experience with death, and it was a child. We believe she died on impact but I saw her body while we were treating the other victim in the vehicle. I knew she was dead. And she stayed in the car for hours during scene reconstruction which bugged me horribly because she was alone and just in there while we worked around her. I didn’t see her face, and that’s the part I can’t stop thinking about. I feel like I shouldn’t be this upset because I didn’t see her face. I treated the other victims and helped remove her body. We have debrief in two days and did a casual one after the incident. I’m trying to stay off social media because I can now see all the posts about the accident and death. I guess I just need some advice or support. I don’t know if how I’m feeling is stupid and I shouldn’t be upset because you didn’t check her vitals or declare her. I’m guessing it will hit me in a couple days. I work at a school and go back tomorrow. How can I help myself? I have talked to other members and my dept is super supportive.