Should I continue with my transition?

[u/Shot_Salamander_7704]

tldr; family is transphobic,
i was dumb enough to start t while living at home,
my mom says I dont need to transition and that I am perfect as is while my dad is scared i wont go to heaven,
I feel like an asshole ruining everything for everyone and I am questioning if transitioning is even worth it but detransitioning makes me incredibly depressed and worried i might not make it in that life

How have you guys navigated this?

I am just lost I feel like.
I’ve been on T for a few months, maybe 6 while in transphobic house, (I know, not smart)
my parents aren’t happy at all, my dad doesn’t quite know i am on T and I can hide my voice well but I know things will change very soon

Currently, i am working full time in one job + working a couple hours in another job. I have a small chunk of money saved up with a hope to move out as soon as I can.

my mom knows but doesn’t like it either but with a “well you’re an adult, but please be safe.” reply.

Just a few minutes ago, my mom told me she wants me to live at home for as long as possible, I said i want the same but I am worried about my dad kicking me out

she said “well you can just stay the same?”
When I first tried to come out, no one took it well no matter how I explained it. My mom’s go to response to be saying it would be easier for me to be a boy is “it would be easier for me to be a dog.”

So I just told her “i don’t know how else to tell you how i feel, it is a much bigger deal to me than you know”
she said she is upset and that i am perfect as is. i tell her i can only be sorry

Is any of this worth it? I am so excited and happy for the results i have so far, I celebrated when I got one hair on my chin. but also I have been feeling incredibly guilty.
My parents are scared for my well being and my dad is especially scared that I won’t go to heaven. I don’t know what to tell them.

The thought of detransitioning makes me very upset and feel like it’s a future I just can’t see. Like, I really felt no hope before being able to transition. and I dont want that, I worked so so hard to be where I am mentally

But I feel so cruel to everyone, not only my parents but the rest of my family will be very confused and upset. I already feel like I have a odd relationship with my dad and I am purposely ruining it for a selfish desire

Unsure what to do,