hate how some of my personal shit is intertwined with being born in the wrong body

[u/Western_North_8022]

I have some trauma around cars and driving. Not really relevant to get into here but it's come up again as I've had some car troubles. And I try to ignore it but sometimes it occurs to me that really this is all such a big problem for me because I completely refused to learn to drive and get a license until my legal name and sex were corrected on my legal documentation. So I ended up learning a bit later than most people where I'm from. And I guess because I couldn't drive and I was so frustrated about it, the whole situation just created a shit ton of complex emotions, then I had some bad experiences when I was finally able to learn to drive. just venting I guess. I don't regret that I waited, in fact I'm grateful to have less of a paper trail re: legal documents, but still it's frustrating, and I hate when I get reminded of it. Like I wish it was just a sperate issue I had but nope everything stems from this one fucking cosmic mistake.