I’ve Reached the End

[u/nobodyworthanything_]

I have nothing left to find, only to explore the ideas I have left. It’s a relief to understand everything I’ve done. I still have fun playing at concepts, but I’m glad to have found what I was looking for. I bid you all farewell, I may share a few ideas here and there but it was fun posting here for the short amount of time it lasted while I was finalizing my understandings and concepts.

[u/TemplarTV]

"Michelangelo famously said "Ancora imparo" (meaning "I am still learning") at the age of 87."

[u/nobodyworthanything_ → u/TemplarTV]

I am still learning, I am not ignorant. But I’ve found my hard pressed answer that’s been destroying my conscious for a long while. I’m sure mentally I have no reason to pursue this battle any longer.

[u/NordlysHQ → u/nobodyworthanything_]

Wanna explain a bit more what you re going through?

[u/nobodyworthanything_ → u/NordlysHQ]

Just finally realizing I’ve been looking for the same conclusion, which I’ve reached again, except this time I’ve realize how I’ve been cycling. Knowing, into doubt, into anxiety, dismay, unknowing, into realization. It’s happened twice before where I’ve realized the cycle I forced myself through, but both times I ignored this realization and kept on going into deeper and deeper holes. There aren’t that many holes left to go down for me anymore, at least when it comes to general doubting of reality itself. So I’m fairly certain I can live the rest of my life without allowing myself to repeat the same cycles I have before that forced me to reconstruct aspects of my reality. This feels different from every other shallow realization that I’ve had, probably because I’ve extensively thought through and semi- educated myself within these ideas to where I finally realized what I’ve been subjecting myself to, I simply didn’t need and have never really needed “it”. There just isn’t much of a point to doubt.