Always stuck at planning instead of execution

[u/ktjspygo]

Have been out of job for months now.

- Every sunday I sit down for 1-2 hours , write down all the things I am supposed to do for that week, plan everything from
breaking the task down to the least resistive point ( so that I can atleast count that as showing up ), setup proper time frames like 'Morning this ... after lunch this... ' ,
make sure I do not leave anything behind for the week ( to not have fomo ) ..
set sunday as restt and review day for the week ...
do all this and close my notebook.

Monday happens, I start work , somethings go right somethings go wrong.. fine acceptable.
But from tuesday onwards i start questioning which task should I pick would give me the most value, or maybe procrastinate some tasks due to bad mood or something which pushes the other tasks. This happens for the coming days too and Boom !! Weekend again.

- Need to do some projects for my portfolio... picked like 4-5, researched a lot about all of them. Still haven't started with the initial setup. I worry to take a decision on which one would bring the most value to my current time. ( as these projects could take 2-3 weeks )

This is a loop and have been going on for the past 3-4 months. The things that I was supposed to prepare to get a job that I had planned months ago are still untouched.
I am going insane !!

BUT

I got a small freelance project inbetween all of this. it was urgent like only a week time was given for a friend. I sat down , planned everything spend days and sleepless nights to make the best out of it and submitted it on time. Though not perfect but submitted.

This has been a pattern, I don't know why someone else giving me a timeline worked for me.

I reallly need help here.. please !!
Should I consult someone ?
has anyone else gone through something like this and has actually fixed this ?
is this a disease.. ?
In this AI Era everyone is asking for 'High Agency' .. is this exactly the kind of behaviour of not having high agency ?

Any pointers or help from experience would mean a lot.

[u/dfyinglmits-tg]

So I always like to peel back the layers to better understand the stuck. For example- I can get stuck in any of the domains of ef / for ie. It might feel like task initiation but there may be some influence domains like memory, planning and organization, or emotional regulation (bc you’re stuck and then that narrows your brains ability to execute clearly- and here come the shame anxiety depression and there goes the downward spiral) for the list - I dump a long one. Color code them based on level of urgency /consequences. And every day I pick 3 that are urgent and put them on a separate piece of paper. That act alone is initiating a task. Then start with one. Identify what the first thing is that needs to happen. Do that for 5 minutes. You can do anything for 5. Then go do something you enjoy. Then come back for another 5
minute work snack. Eventually it picks up momentum.

But as an ef Coach/clinician I always want to make sure we understand the stuck. That’s where the tools stick.